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I don't know how to feel, don't know if to be sad , mad , depressed. people tell me that I should just move on , forget about it . I smile and say 'Your right ' but I don't know how to tell them I cant its just something that ive always felt . I really want to be happy I really do but whenever im close to being happy theres always one person who ruins it for me . And maybe that's my fault , for letting them . Ever since I was young ive always been a sad kid people always told me " oh wow you look like your mom your gonna be just like her when your older " and sometimes they still say that to me now and everytime they do makes me feel so sad and mad at the same time because im nothing like her I swear im not. I know you shouldn't care about what people say to you or think about you but I try and try and try so hard for it not to get to me but I fail over and over again . The person I would think would understand me doesn't at all they just thinks im still a child I get it they are older then me and we have a different mind set on things but I just wish they would listen to me and understand me but they doesn't, they just gets mad at me and I feel like I have no one to talk to because no one gets it. I just don't want to end up like her, I don't want to make one small mistake and people are gonna say that they were right I did end up just like her , every time I look into a mirror I see her looking back at me and I hate that . I wish I didn't look like how I look ! SHE RUINED MY LIFE ! I don't know what I ever did to her I don't know I really wish I did so I can say sorry but I don't know why I would , I never did anything to her . ive always listen to her, always did what she ask , yet nothing pleased her .