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I want to prove to my dad that I’m responsible enough to get a ps4 I get do good in school and get good grades always but I’ve been asking him for one every since goonie had one but I never got it I don’t even know if my dad cares about ppl emotions but sometimes I feel like he does most of the time I feel like he doesn’t care. I just rly want a ps4 but I never get one I kept telling my dad can I use he’s he doesn’t even use it tbh but what cost more an iPhone or ps4 a ps4 obviously 🙄 I rarely tell him how I feel Bc he just doesn’t care it’s ok Bc at the end of the day the more he ignores me the more closer I get to the cliff where I fall to my death. My brother doesn’t let me play the game with him but only when I wanna play I have to rub his feet which is gross I’m now wishing that u wasn’t the big sister anymore when I’m at my dads house if they do something bad I get In trouble it doesn’t even matter if I was sleep when it happened and now I’m getting closer to the cliff feeling ready to jump I tried overdosing didn’t even hurt me was gonna cut myself felt stupid then I talked to my aunt she helped me feel better and she told me that I mattered and now I’m slowly walking away I get told what to do constantly by ppl that aren’t my parents their my cousins gene makes me angry and sad I began to run toward the cliff Tomince uses me for my room now I’m at the edge of the cliff ppl constantly talk about my forehead and say I have no eye brows now I take a leap from the cliff and feel the air press against me while slowly falling to my death ppl would be crying if I died and they’re the ones who drove me off the cliff.