Notes

letting go...
sometimes you don't mean as much to someone as you thought you did, in your eyes their perfect, they meant the world to you so you thought you meant the world to them, but that wasn't the case. you hold on to these memories, because every time you start to lose hope in them coming back to you, you just think of those memories, but they slowly began to fade from your mind, not meaning as much. you finally decide its time to let go. you know its going to be heart breaking but you still go threw with it, right as you start to forget about them, right as you start to let go, right as you start to love them from a distance, for some odd reason they give you the attention you loaned for, its like the world was doing it, like something from a movie, but of course your never anyone's number one choice, but you actually are you just chose to ignore those people and push them away for that one person, and when that one person is out of your life and you turn to those people who once would kill to be with you, they all seem to be happy and moved on, now what you sit there with no one, but eventually you cope with that. but one day you and that person that once caused you so much pain, become friends. they have moved on and you play it off cool but it kills you seeing them with someone else, but again your supposed to be good friends right? in the back of your mind your just waiting for them to break up, and eventually they do, but they wasn't noticing you, of course it was never you. for some reason you get the courage to text them, how you miss talking. but the message they send back made your heart drop because in their view you were never someone that they were interested in. just a ''friend''. you sit there and realized how much time you have wasted on this person, how many months you could have been happy but were instead sitting there for hours looking like an idiot waiting for that person to answer. your just way to easy to mess with, you realize you were just there for their boredom