Notes

I wanna say that im smart, but really I'm not and my mom thinks I'm smart, my dad, maybe my siblings, my tutor, or my other family, but I really am stupid. IM being honest, I don't understand anything at all, like what the teacher is explaining or whatever we're working on in class. It's not the teacher's fault ofcourse or maybe...nahhh I just can't get my dumb brain to focus and stop procrastinating. I keep saying to myself "It's okay, nothing is serious now you just have to get serious in high school, just be dumb and crazy". But I literally feel like it's serious now with what I'm hearing from my teacher and students it just sounds so important for me which also makes me worried. I care about my grades but at the same time I don't, IDK if that makes sense but that's how i feel.I am making a promise to myself that after this week is over and it's winter break, I will do my best to get back on track and do all my work correctly and on time. If I don't keep this promise, well there no punishment really. but If I do keep this promise then I will be happy and successful in what I'm doing. For now...well I just wanna get over this week, get all my sleep back, and chill until I have the energy to work again. But right now, I'm gonna be stupid cuz who said I can't :P.