Notes

Couldn't think of a song, so i chose a poem. https://allpoetry.com/poem/8448407-Alone-by-Edgar-Allan-Poe

Hello Ryu!
It's currently 11:38pm here and I'm trying to write this down before midnight comes!
It is not the fact that i am obliged to answer, it is the fact that i really like to answer! It is quite exciting and comforting. If i felt that i am obliged rather than freely answering, then i wouldn't have done so. it would've been short and straightforward.

Ah, yes! I remember repeating it through my head countlessly, trying to find the deeper meaning that you have obscurely provided. Imagine if you had never effaced and corrected your answer! What different road that would have been.

11:44pm
I strongly agree with you on that one, we must contain immense amount of solitary time and dive deep within ourselves to achieve that sort of understanding. Books are the cause for various things, such as widening our imagination and creativity. It increases your level of knowledge as well. It basically opens up your mind to new worlds. They are like...helpers I can say. But, at the end, we are our own teachers. And thank you for complimenting my vocabulary, i waste time by consuming in strange and useful words.

11:48pm , i am getting anxious!
Well, i suppose you tend to handle your own pain better because it is you who brought it upon yourself. So everyone encompassed by you is blameless in this situation. I hope i am correct in that, for that is what i have realised with my own self. I do not lucidly become attracted or attached to people. I do not usually care either. But once i do, that person has the advantage to legitimately...fuck me up! It is ephemeral yet very, very cumbersome.

11:57. I am getting even more anxious!
It is nice to know, that you strongly connected with my words. I am not alone in my opinions and thoughts, It causes me great contentment to acknowledge that! It does, indeed, seem as if we are writing letters to each other. I don't know what we are building with this, perhaps it is a sort of friendship? Or two people who are discussing something mutual? Or perhaps is it one of those sad times in which intersected lines become parallel once the work is done?

11:59... i am getting even more, more anxious!
The way you speak of me is way contradictory to... Okay it's 12:00am. My plan to answer before midnight has miserably failed! I am going to leave now for a couple of minutes.

12:32am...I still do not feel finished, why is that?
The way you speak of me is way contradictory to how i view myself. Remarkable and beautiful? I never had the opinion.

12:54am
Also,

12:57 am
Also,

1:01am
Also, I view myself very little. Like, i'm just a soul. Powerful yet a fragile soul. Two of my friends think i am remarkable, which gives me a strange feeling. Like, i did not tend to exactly be remarkable, i just exposed some of my inner self. That is all. I know myself very well. There is no cryptic mystery that i have not yet discovered about myself. It is both good and sad. I am tired!

1:06am
But, i thank you so very much! Your words are lovely. It is nice to hear something as kind as that during an unbalanced state. It gives me the sense of warmth and joyfulness, two things i devoid.

1:26 am
It feels as though you are hoping for a 3rd answer! You said "3rd time, and i will be greatly annoying" So i am obliged to answer after all. The good type of obliged, in which i feel like i would type forever.

1:45am
Thank you, for reading this. Thank you for.....just thank you i guess. For hearing me? For responding back? I don't know. I think you just acknowledged another side of me. A troubled one, maybe. So... just thank you.
Lee.