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i keep running back to this app for closure. i just like to get it all out sometimes.. ya feel me? so i havnt talked to seth morgan in 4 days because i do not have a phone right now, dad had my mom take it. i think he has been trying to text me but i dont even know. he sent me a snap and then tried to ask me where i was but i failed to respond. i dont know. i think that this is going good even though i really want to know what he has been texting me. hmm. like yesterday we made eye contact and our eyes followed for a long time. i dont know why but i have a feeling that he texted me because of that. he probably thinks im mad at him for some reason. i dont think im ready to text him yet and by the time i get my phone back it will be 4-5 days that i havnt texted him. 5 days if i dont talk to him on sunday. i wonder if he even cares about me rn. i know that he deleted like all the pictures that i sent him. i should do the same. when he told me that i started to cry. like.. mmm. i dont know. i have sent him lots of pictures and he just deletes like all of them. its somewhat sad. i really should delete all those pictures off my phone and ipod. itll be hard but i can do it. pictures is all that i hold onto. even as a child i have always gotten into pictures and have taken them. they remind me of all the good. if that makes sense. it just puts everything aside. i really hope that makes sense.