Notes

Yeah, I mean, negatively, I was just like a zombie. I had no personality, and I would just sit somewhere. Me and my friends would just sit quietly in a basement or an abandoned building and stare at each other with a big bag of Adderall or sometimes it was other things stronger drugs that would numb anything. Either way we took it no questions asked. I don't even really know what I liked so much about it. Maybe it was that feeling of nothing being " numb " it's a good feeling despite it not being healthy or good for anyone in any way, it even effected the people around me but at the time, I just didn't care. Can you really blame me? Not caring about the bullshit that was going on at home or the huge issues in life at that time. It felt great at least that's what I thought but, in the end, it really fucked us over. Life definitely felt a lot more vibrant when I stopped, but I was also really sensitive, the highs were a lot higher, but the lows were pretty low too. I ended up hurting a lot of people while I was in that mindset. If I could take it all back, I would. It's just, I don't know, that stuff really fucked with the way I cared about other people. When I was off of it, I was just like " wow, this is what real life is like " and I actually gave a shit.