Notes

isaiah ur such a good guy i love you so much :/ you've been there for me for such a long time tommorow we will have been with each other for a year tommorow ive told u this i started this relashionship thinkin it wasnt finna go anywhere but i slowly started to fall in love with my bestfriend and we've gone through so much shii like i swear to god i would've never thought we wouldve been together for a year like thats so crazy you were my first real bf like u met my parents and shii like i messed up ik that but you've never held my mistakes againts me and like that means alot to me and like im so sorry ive messed up tho i guess i was j scared that we werent finna last and like u were gonna hurt me so id rather hurt u which was f'd up and like idk if i could imagine myself as comfortable with anyone else other than u bc like u see my real side u see me when im hurt when im mad when im in a ''silly goofy mood'' like u literally played roblox with me 🥺 like u made time for me like your such a good guy and like i have dreams abt us and our future but im so fuckin scared that im gonna screw this up again and i dont wanna lose u i love you so damn much and like u have no idea how much i care for u like u dont know and like all i think abt is the moments we had with each other like that video i have of us in the car or lmao when u put my glasses on orrrr wehn we were at the game and after u were like giving me a side hug like ur so adorable or when u held my hand when i would b nervouse like isaiah i dont know how i got so lucky with u it j blows my mind but at the same time i feel like we hurt each other and sometimes we bring each other down tbh and i feel like at times are we ''THAT'' perfect for each other like me and u either get along super well or not at all and idk why that is and it makes me sad and i feel lkke lowkey both of us kay b better with someone else but like i cant think of the thought of another girl making u happy or feel that nervouse but happy feeling and i thimk that at times we should say our goodbyes but i cant lose u like bruh we've gone thru so much shit that if i went thru with anyone else they wouldve been gone already but u always stayed like i luv u sm and at times i feel like our relationship is just sexual and i dont want that like i wouldnt have problems sending u 'pics' but i would cry later that night bc i hate the thought of it just being sexual with us and stuff and like idk and like i just staryed to get bored like it almost seems like when we talk ur just so focused on the game and stuff and idk i just think that at times would we be better without each other bc like at the end u only listen to ur friends and when i was away from u i was happier than ever but i also have this happiness when im with u but its diffrent idk how to describe it but like are we worth it or not but noboh will love u like i can..............