Notes

heres the thing.

i dont feel like we can be "friends" anymore. cloudy said you called her the f slur and you were complaining to her that i only talked about ddlc, when you talk about aot and demon slayer a bunch. im not trying to make fun of your interests, it just feels like you're being a hypocrite, plus, i only talked about ddlc for like a day or two and you say i talk about it 24/7. you were also insulting the things i had interest in, its like you arent even taking my feelings into account. im a person too, and things like that really hurt me. yes, they're just characters, but i really like them, and you shouldn't make fun of the things i like, it doesn't matter if its a joke or not, making fun of me like that is really hurtful.

all of your friends in the gcs say slurs (including adding different letters like ph or saying "f slur") makes me feel really uncomfortable. even if they do change it, it still makes me feel uncomfortable. they also post pictures of porn, and got banned in ranboo's server because they broke the rules, and thats kind of disgusting. i really don't want to talk/be friends with people who purposefully break rules and send porn. thats just disgusting to me.

i also finally picked up on that you (used to?) like me. so many people have been asking "do you like sty" and no, i dont. i've stated multiple times im aro/on the aro spectrum, im sorry if this hurts your feelings but my feelings need to be taken into account too. just because i turned you down doesn't mean im a bad person, i just wanted to let you know that in case you see me as a bad person after i turned you down. you keep telling me im the only person keeping you alive and im glad you are, but thats still considered guilt tripping, and i have feelings too, and my feelings are that i need to move on, and you do too. plus, you say you're mlm but i'm non-binary so that really didn't make sense.

the reason why i feel like we can't be "friends" but your friends are causing most of the problems, is that people tend to "copy" the behavior of the people they want to appeal to, so you're becoming more like them, making your humor exclusively "among us" and aot memes, plus you're starting to make a lot of porn jokes and its really making me extremely uncomfortable.

i know you're the type of person to leak people's dms without permission, so please don't send this to anyone else. and speaking of that, you've leaked our dms multiple times, and thats another reason i've started to drift away from you. you never take my emotions into account, even for a second. whenever i seem sad when you're "flirting" with someone else, fictional or not, you say ":(." like you think that i always did something wrong, and not even for a moment you think you're the wrong one.

this will probably hurt you, so im sorry. i just really need to be more independent. i want to be happier and feel better about myself, so cutting you off would probably be best for me. i may have liked you before, but since you started to ignore my feelings and insult my interests, i lost interest in you. i thought taking a break would keep my mind off of it so i could be better friends with you, but it really just brought us farther apart. i thought i've seen your worst before, but i think i finally have now. im sorry again. please understand that this is what i feel is best for me, so respect my decision and move on. maybe theres someone else who would want to be your lover, maybe not. i hope you're happier now that you wont have someone clinging to your side.

goodbye, sty. i really am going to miss you.