Notes

Man this life got me stressing so much & so bad I don't know what to do, I have no fucking clue what the fuck is going on, I am going crazy without you It's been a while seen you been gone, out of this world & our lives & mom & dad miss you so much like crazy they wish they could still have you & hold on to you & have you by there side everyday & every night just like back then when you were just there little baby & they wish they didn't do wrong with all of us, cause now we are all fucked up but you know what life goes on, it's pretty crazy how you were here then gone, if I knew that was going to happened I would of stayed with you instead of leaving you, I didn't know that was going to be the last time ill ever see you & the last time we eat & sit down together laughing while drinking a brew but we all miss you so much & your in all of our hearts & soul & will never let you go & I remember all the times we share together nothing but brother love to each other when we went out Saturdays to go do our thing like always then how we both always chilled at memorial park or at the house drinking & sipping on a King Cobra brew that was our thing to do & even though your gone I try & I try but it feels like I ain't going no where but every time I think of you or even look at your pictures it hurts to know your gone & I just think how do I want to live & die just like you I don't know at times but I mean I still keep my head up to sky & I still try & I still have that smile on my face just like how I seen you for the very last time, I always wonder why did you have to go but I guess no one will ever know accept the man above I really don't think it was your time to go but he took your life anyways from all of us it's just fucked up the way you had to go no one would of ever thought that would happen at least not to you but it's whatever's I still think & cry for you everyday I don't know about others but I do & I wish for you to be here everyday like you were before always recycling & drinking a brew with me I miss those days I wish I could go back to them & cherish them even more than I did before, I know it's wrong for the stuff I am doing in my life with all these sins but I need help, I need a sign, I need to know that your still up above me in those clouds looking down & helping & following me every where I go & to make sure I go down the right path & not go down below in hell I want to rise up to the sky & be with god & be by your side in heaven not in hell, I miss you that's all, Ever since then everything has been going wrong with life, relationships, family, school, I just seem that I can't do right no more how hard I try everyday & every night I cry & think about you & I just wait for one day that should come soon so I could be by your side again & just relax & drink other brew & hug you one more time & say I love you brother I just really miss you & I need you but I will be seeing you pretty soon <3... R.I.P Carlos Rios Always Loved, Never Forgotten ...<3