Notes

IM SO BOREEEEEEEEED
IM PROBABLY GOING TO FAIL IN LIFE
I HAVE A D+
IM PROBABLY NOT GOING TO BE A DOCTOR
I JUST WANT TO GROW UP
HAVE A FAMILY
WORK
BE AN ADULT
I JUST WANT TO GET OUT OF THIS STUPID WORLD
THIS CHILDHOOD
IT HAS ITS GOOD PARTS, BUT IT ALSO HAS TH ONES THAT SUCK
WHICH I HATE
I HATE IT
I HATE IT SO FUCKING MUCH
LET ME JUST HAVE KIDS
LET ME FIND MY PRINCE CHARMING
LET ME GET GOOD GRADES FOR ONCE WITHOUT CHEATING
LET ME LOVE MYSELF
LET ME BE SKINNY
IM TOO LAZY FOR THAT SHIT
I WANT TO
BUT MY BRAIN DOESN'T
, MY SPIRIT DOES THO
LOL
I WANNA DIE
PLZ KILL ME
I DON'T WANT TO BE ERE ANYMORE
I DON'T THINK IM GOING TO PASS MR. BALZANO'S CLASS
IM GONNA FAIL
I MEAN DON'T YOU ALWAYS
YOU YOURSELF ARE A FAILURE
I KNOW
I KNOW
WHICH IS WHY I FUCKNG HATE MYSELF SO FUCKING MUCH
I JUST WANT TO DIE, BUT IM TOO SCARED TO ACTUALLY DO IT
AND EVERY TIME COFFE, VICTOR, ALE, OR JOSE MAKE FUN OF ME FOR ANYTHING
IT ALWAYS STICKS TO ME
TO THE POINT WHERE I JUST BREATH AND START CURSING MYSELF
I CRY SO MUCH WHEN IM ALONE
I ALWAYS TRY TO BE HAPPY, BUT IT'S JUST TOO DIFFICULT
AND WHEN WE WERE SMALLER AND DANIEL AND DAVID MADE FUN OF ME FOR BEING FAT
IT HUNTS ME EVERY NIGHT
I CAN'T FORGET IT
THE HURTFUL MEMORIES
THEY JUST WON'T DISAPPEAR
I HAVE NIGHTMARES ALMOST EVERY NIGHT, BUT SOMETIMES I JUST CAN'T HANDLE THEM SO I GO TO ALE'S ROOM
BUT HWHEN HE DOESNT LET ME IDK WHAT TO DO
IM JUST SO LOST IN LIFE
IDK WHAT ELSE TO DO
I JUST WANNA FUCKING DIE ALREADY
JUST WHY
NANDE
NANDE
NANDE
ANIME IS LITERALLY MY ONLY SALVATION
ALE ALWAYS MAKES FUN OF ME FOR LIKING CORPSE AND LIKING ANIME AND THE GAMES I LIKE
BUT HE JUST DOESN'T UNDERSTANDS THAT THOSE ARE THE THINGS THAT KEEP ME FUCKING ALIVE
I LIVE FOR ANIME AND CORPSE
IF THEY DIDN'T EXIST I PROBABLY WOULD HAVE LEFT THE WORLD BY NOW
THEY'RE THE ONLY THINGS KEEPING ME BREATHING
BUT SOMETIMES I WISH THEY WERE GONE SO I COULD BE GONE TOO
OH AND MANGA
LMAO
I LOVE THOSE 3 THINGS
THEY'RE LITERALLY MY PURPOSE IN LIFE
I WANNA DIE THO
DAMN IT
WHY DID I HAVE TO BE BORN UGLY
JUST WHY
SOMETIMES I WISH I COULD JUST JUMP A BUILDING
SOMETIMES WHEN WE ARE IN A HOTEL I CONSIDER JUMPING THAT'S WHY SOMETIMES I STARE AT THE "VIEW"
IM JUST LOOKING IF I JUMPED WOULD I DIE INSTANTLY
BECAUSE IF I JUMP I DO NOT WANT TO BE SAVED AFTER
WANNA KNOW WHY I LOVE ROLLER COASTERS?
BECAUSE I ALWAYS CONSIDER
"HUH, CAN I JUST JUMP FROM HERE AND END IT ALL?"
BUT I DONT
BECAUSE I LIKE TO THINK THAT PEOPLE ACTUALLY LIKE ME AND CARE ABOUT ME
LOL
AS IF THAT WERE TRUE
IM JUST TOO SCARED TO DIE
BRUH
ONCE ALE TOLD ME HE HAD DEPRESSION
BOY PLEASE YOU'RE NOT EVEN CLOSE TO SADNESS
WANNA KNOW WHAT DEPRESSION IS
WELL JUST GET TO KNOW ME FOR ONCE WHNY DONT YOU
LITERALLY, NOBODY ACTUALLY KNOWS ME
FAVORITE COLOR
PEOPLE WOULD SAY GOLD
BUT GET TO KNOW ME AND YOU WOULD SAY SAGE GREEN
THINGS THAT I LIKE TO DO FOR A HOBBY
PEOPLE WOULD SAY BE ON YOUR PHONE OR IDK
BUT GET TO KNOW IT'S ACTUALLY LEARNING MORE ABOUT ZODIAC SIGNS
PEOPLE JUST DON'T REALLY KNOW ME AS I DO
FUCK
EVEN SOMETIMES I DON'T KNOW MYSELF
PLZ
I JUST WANNA DIE
I DONT EVEN WANT PEOPLE KNOWING ME
I HAVE SOCIAL ANXIETY
I LITERALLY FREEZE UP WHEN TALKING
THAT'S WHY I LIE ABOUT HAVING FRIENDS SO MOM AND DAD DONT GET WORRIED
BRUH
LIKE THEY EVER WILL
I JUST WANT TO KNOW WHAT IT FEELS LIKE TO HAVE A FRIEND
I NEVER HAD ONE
I WISH I HAD
BUT IM JUST A FUCKING OUTCAST
LITERALLY, NOBODY TALKS TO ME
BECAUSE I DONT KNOW HOW TO INTERACT
IM JUST BROKEN
I JUST WISH I WAS BROKEN ENOUGH TO KILL MYSELF ALREADY
I JUST WANT FUCKING DIEEEEEEEEEEE
I DONT EVEN KNOW WHY IM WRITING THIS
I GUESS I JUST WANTED TO LET IT OUT SOMEWHERE
BUT I JUST ENDED UP TALKING TO MYSELF
LOL
PLZ I WANNA DIE SO BAD
OR MAYBE JUST GO BACK AND BE THE LITTLE 5 YEAR OLD THAT WAS ALWAYS HAPPY
IDK
JUST SOMEONE KILL ME BEFORE I DO
BYE
THANKS FOR TALKING TO ME MYSELF
IT WAS NICE
NOW I HAVE TO GO BACK TO CLASS AND BE THE FAILURE I ALWAYS HAVE BEEN
I JUST WISH I COULD SAY THIS TO MOM OR DAD OR ALE
IDK
I JUST WANNA DIE
THAT'S ALL I KNOW
BYE
:)