Notes

Being apart of a love triangle is far from what I wanted in life I wanted to be the girl he wanted not the girl he wants to meet with his girlfriend which was never mentioned to me at the start, he use to be very close to me and message me nearly everyday but you know when you know that the tables are turned or the shoe is on the other foot that's how I felt instead of him texting me everyday on Facebook its now his girlfriend messaging me everyday on snapchat taking pictures of them together on Skype. Its not like I was jealous or anything far from it when I look at him twice he is not really nice he has such a huge ego its unbelievable he loves himself thinks every girl wants him, but I think am considering twice whether I like him that much or not whether he is really worth it. This girl that apparently he is so madly in love with likes a band that was so last year not even in this century, she also has black hair with a fringe I don't really know whether I would like to meet up with her. I didn't mention did I he wants us to meet up all of us together he wants me and her to become best of friends am wondering whether this is a real relationship or not, or whether he is just cat-fishing me and this is all some sick joke to get me to like him, but its failing massively though he should really know that. But on the brighter side am still looking around for that special one its becoming like an adventure from the hobbit, there are times when I have just felt like giving up looking for the special one. I sometimes sit there and think am I going to be single all my life and not find anyone to share my massive love with in half. Don't get me wrong I do get asked out by boys cause that's what they are some of them am considering whether they have reached puberty let alone having sex. Anyway back to me getting asked out by the wrong type of boys most of them are just sex mad it's like that's all they think about the first question they ever ask wait for it, are you a virgin? its like so trophy in the Olympics that they are competing to get, they need to do something more productive with there time instead. The reason why am writing all this is to show you guys out there that boys just want what they can get and like the guy in the apparently weird relationship he just loves playing games with girls especially. It did get sour at one point because he did lead me on even though he will say that he didn't but even my friends know he did and that tells you everything, cause I showed them all the messages. All I really want from a man not a boy is for them to not be crude or dirty like most of them are if that mister right is out there I would gladly give you my number. I thing I don't get about boys is your mum never raised you like that so don't pretend like your some sort of mad crazy bad boy cause it just doesn't work for me. Some people say boys go for girls that are like the mothers, please don't make me laugh am not gonna be that girl who babies my boyfriend as if that's not me on any level. They also say girls go for men that are like there dads well good luck with that one boys never really knew my dad but I know want i want from a man though so you failed there boys with me.