Notes

First off- you've got the looks of a 10, personality of a 10(sorry for the bias) but the confidence in one's intuition of a 3. Listen, I don't know you outside of your home life and our little bubble, and you're probably a really confident person. But there's something holding you back when it comes to vibing with more people, as far as I can tell from our past convos. It's useful to be close with a lot more, and at the same time stick to your really close ones. Think of people as investments that pay off in the future, I'm sure your right-wing capitalist mindset would enjoy that.
Secondly - Preface this with this might've changed. But you've seemed hesitant sometimes to talk about your problems. You can avoid as much emotional talk as you can while doing so, and I know the first issue is related to this, but when you do find someone you are comfortable with, don't hesitate and worry about the consequences. If you've done something wrong, accept the consequences. If you haven't, you've got nothing to worry about and if the person's mad but they seem worth it, they'll come round.
Third - I'm gonna attack myself here. I give people too much benefit of doubt, and in doing so I stick to some people longer than I need to i.e. I waste my time with people that don't deserve it. You're kind of the opposite in this regard, correct this in your mind if I'm wrong. People have their reasons, people have a lot more going on than they're willing to tell. You don't gotta empathize, although that would be great. Sympathize.