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hi diary i hate my life it sucks and i just want it to end like fast and i dont know what i should do anymore i love my boyfriend tayler from the botton of my heart i would kill for him and my dad wont let me back on his phone so i could text him tayler helps me with depression he helps me with so much i feel safe around him i feel protected and loved so much the first time we met was the day i was with his friend and it was december 18,2013 it was a moment we had because we stared at eachother like it was love at first site it broke my heart that we broke up about 4 times and all those times i regreted life love and memories but i will never forgot december moment with tayler i was so glad to see him last night as soon as i seen him walk through the door he looked and stared at me but like i said it was love at first site i will always love him always and forever and ever and i cant love him better i love him all the way i will be happy when i know me and him will be together off and on for the rest of our life and one day hopefully our love will be eternal and a never ending love i will love him to my death i will love him even when im dead or hes dead i will kill myself if he dies i dont care when i will end it when i have the chance to kill myself whenever and how ever and where ever i promise that because love is wild with tayler and life is so much better with him in it i dont care for john or anyone else i promise that to anyone i just need tayler like i love him more then people would love their own self i find it really hard to let him go its so difficult im hurt so bad inside i cant stand it it feels like that sometimes its so depressing losing him i cut literally everyday that i lost him and when i seen him lastnight i cried and he hugged me like never before and i loved it and he said he thinks he loves me and i believed him because i love him too he put his arms around me and i had from tears of depression to tears of joy but when he let go i went back to my depressed self and he hugged me again and i felt safe and protected i love him forever and ever i will never forget him i think of him everyday and he keeps me going in life because when i think of him i smile and i think of some of the things he did and i smile and never forget anything he does he is my love for life he tells me baby dont cut and i think of him every second of evey hour of every day 1 cut 2 cuts 3 cuts 4 cuts dont tell no one if you knew knew what im going through you would understand still 1 cut 2 cuts 3 cuts 4 cuts i counted only 4 no more now did i please dont tell no one SECRETS....