Notes

i loved you. i thought that you were mine and only MINE. i would think about you first thing in the morning and the last thing before i went to sleep. you never loved me and it took me a while to realize that. you only posted ' wifey ' for 11:11 but never posted me. you didn't care about me enough to love me for me and for who i was. i was stupid to fall for the trap you lured me into, as you knew how much i loved you and cared about you. it seemed like i was a toy for you and you used me for things that a female should embrace and not want to hide because of how you treat her. you took my first kiss with a boy, the first time someone ever touched me on my bottom, and you took the spot of my first love. i was stupid to love you, to truly love you. as Billie said, i fell ' for a lie '. you lied about everything and anything i ever experienced with you. you always probably had a side bitch and i was never special to you, even though i felt like i was on top of the world. everyone told me to not fuck with you but i didn't listen because i thought you would've been my love forever but you obviously weren't. i cried in front of people for you and you didn't give a fuck. you never asked me how i was so when i was hurting i was hurting in silence. you told me we'd have kids and you send me pictures of babies. why would you lie? after you scarred me for months, i was broken and now, because of you, i don't think i'll ever fall for someone as hard as i did for you. if i do, i won't be surprised if i get hurt because I've been numb since , what i thought was the love of my life, destroyed all my hope for love. being so open with someone and then they betray you is one of the worst feelings to have to go through. you won't understand until you go through it. i hope no other female falls for your fuckboy trap ever again. i hope you change. i wish you changed with me, but life isn't fair.