Notes

hi dinky, i respect that you believe you understand my frustration to some extent, but the fact you manage to rectify most of your actions is mindboggling to me. half of your letter is comprised of guilt tripping. you make it seem like i'm a game you won the moment you’re unblocked and it should speak for itself how unclear it is whether you are being sincere in your apology. you don't seem to feel remorse for any of the behavior that you made me deal with. or you're just toying around with my emotions for the sake of it, cause you get so much joy from being a complete asshole and deliberately trying to inflict pain on me. you keep falling back on your intuition and act as if i’ve mistreated you, when i’m not the conniving person who’s constantly victimising themselves while using somebody else’s words against them and with that same energy proclaim that person is being manipulative. no one’s saying you’re a bad person but it truly puts things into perspective. you’re not on some moral highground telling me i deserve to die multiple times, let alone justify these supposed ‘’hyperboles’’. you’ll do anything to stick to your false conclusion about what went down after everything’s thoroughly explained, you live in your own bubble just so it fits your own narrative and disrespectfully dismiss people’s thoughts and even proceed to troll. it’s sickening that you put me in this situation, blaming everything on me and making me feel guilty for your actions or that i’m not doing enough to help you. it’s more than obvious that you’re mentally ill but should i let sympathising be this draining? where do you get the nerve from to say i have no compassion when i’ve given you all that i’ve got? i put up with your bullshit because i care about you, you’re my friend and I can guarantee that no one else would’ve been this patient, especially after all that you put me through. do you bear in mind that your apology reeks of immaturity? being mentally ill does not give you the green light to make others feel like pure shit. i can handle your toxicity just fine but what i do hope is that no one else will ever have to go through the same and that i’ll be the last person you treat like this. i could easily forgive if you at least regret exceeding my limitations but until then, this must be some sick joke to you.