Notes

Gracie, remember my words. I will always remember the times we spent together, and I will always treasure our memories. I've always enjoyed playing together: dungeon defenders 2, gta 5, overcooked, scp, dying light, we were here, and bigfoot(although these last 3 weren't very fun for us). Of course, I enjoyed the first two the most :). You were always a good person in my eyes, Gracie. It's really touching how sweet you can be with your actions and words. Hanging out together in calls was so comfortable too. We got along so easily with a lot. It was fun watching you experimenting different strategies in DD2. We helped each other grind Chaos levels!(mostly you carrying tho :( ). I like that when we play GTA 5, you get to show off your amazing baby driver driving skills; driving in first person, crashing into people and other cars, and getting our car to flip without us dying! Seeing you do that always made me laugh. Doing missions too was really fun with you: survival and dispatch. I miss the outfit you have with a biker helmet, pink top, panties with polka doots and boots/shoes. I did say that that looked weird, but I miss seeing that outfit the most. Anyway, I didn't expect that I'd actually want to look for new games that we could play together, but we did. For me, that just means that I had really a lot of fun with you.

I appreciate you a lot, Gracie. The problem now is just that although we were great friends, we met at the wrong time. At first, I really wanted to make it work so that I could keep both you and Kyla. You're both precious to me. I wanted to make it work, because I hated the idea of anyone getting hurt. Because if anyone will get hurt, it will hurt a lot. I wanted to prevent that. I tried to talk to her about it. However, I made a mistake that I could have told Kyla about me being friends with you. Besides that, I doubt that Kyla would have ever felt alright with it. As I told you, I already did try to talk to her into it. She couldn't take it emotionally. Because of this, it is very hard for her to be alright with me being with you. In addition to that, she would want to know how much time I'd spend with you too. I told her about it and she hated it. So, trying to get her to be okay with you soon is not realistically possible. She'd have to make a very big change to make it work in the long run, and this isn't even guaranteed. I know that it's unfair for you, Gracie. It has always pained me to think that I had to make a decision to leave someone. I decided to say with Kyla, because she's the girl I love. I know what you've said that your experience with her is toxic, and you saw her bad sides. Still, I love her and I know her so much more than that.

I never meant to hurt you, Gracie. While hoping to prevent that, I thought of certain scenarios wherein we could still be together as very close friends. If I did try to get back to you right now, Kyla will leave me for sure because I've seen how it hurt her. I got in a video call with her and saw how much pain she was I was talking to her about you. I know that she was badly in pain, but I wouldn't compare that to how much pain that caused you. If I would try keep our relationship a secret, it would feel horrible. In this case, there will always be a chance that Kyla will find out about it. I and Kyla plan to live together. In addition to having work everyday, I won't be able to keep us a secret when that time comes. The problem with this scenario is that either Kyla would be devastated from finding out that I was keeping you the whole time. If that won't happen, then it's very possible that I would not be able to spend time with you after starting to live together with Kyla. If neither of those will happen, which seems very unlikely, we can't just hide the whole friendship we have forever and that is very unrealistic. I did think of choosing you over Kyla, but that feels like replacing Kyla. I hate the idea of replacing people. Because I believe that it will be for the best, I'm still firm on my decision to leave you, Gracie. Despite my feelings that I want to continute being with you, I'll be saying my last goodbye(for a very long time, at least).

Despite what's happening and what has happened, I will always remember you and treasure our memories, Gracie. You are one of the few people who I cherished, respected, and appreciated. I love how good of a person you are. Always willing to give me a shoulder to lean on when you know that I was feeling bad. It makes me smile thinking that you love making other people smile too. It's pretty sweet that you made an effort to cheer me up at least a few times. Well, I just appreciate you for you. I will always remember how much I enjoyed when we hanged out together. Whether it's just chatting, calling, playing, etc.( you know the rest). Just remembering our memories together makes me feel good and warm, and those are nothing that I regret experiencing. There's no way that I can enjoy playing the same way as when we were playing together. One thing that I'll always want to remember is the pleasing sound of your voice. Also, I've never told you, but I enjoyed that you call me Lui. You're the only person who has ever called me by that nickname and it feels great. Gracie, please remember that you have always been an amazing person to me. You never needed to say sorry for anything that happened Gracie, and please, take care.