Notes

I'm thankful for the site even tho, I think it's a cesspool. This is the place were I managed to get the most insight, about myself and others. I finally had the courage to look my ex wife in the face. I video chatted with her and my son for 3hrs. We talked about my mental health and our past. I was completely blown away of how well she still knew me. She didn't allow me to hide. She didn't allow me to run. She only wanted the real. She saw me for me. She only told me the real. She accepted me. In those 3hrs, I smiled more than a years worth. I told her all my darkest secrets thinking she would run. But, she said that's just you. She laughed everytime saying, I know you. I don't know why you won't believe me. There's nothing you can say that can hurt. Plus, I know you care and don't wanna hurt me. She told me I'm my own worst enemy. Everytime I'd try to bring myself down she'd change my perspective. I'd say that I'm a monster that doesn't care about anything. She'd say if that's true, why are you trying so hard then. She's right if I wanted to be a garbage person I'd have already given up. I don't want the easy way. But, it does look tempting all the time. I have to kill all this negativity in my mind. That's the way forward. I'm not tripping on kami thread. It's whatever was just being a baby. I know what's right.

She set me goal. The goal is to say I care as often as possible.

Just posting to let people know the site is what you make it. I don't apologize at all. I don't regret nothing. Necessary Evil...

Sincerly, Death Threat Kun