Notes

I wake up every morning & thank God that I'm still alive, growing up without a father in my life is always a struggle.
Trying to grow up & be a man on your own is always a challenge no lie.
As I've gotten older I've came to realize I've started to inherit some of my father way's that's a damn shame.
Had many friends in my life and they started to vanish.
Never knew who I could turn to when I had my troubles.
Growing up on the street's trying to make a hustle just to eat.
To proud to ask someone for a lending hand.
Sacrificed those who were in my life for material things.
Looking up to those who didn't have a future over their shoulder.
Thinking it's alright to treat women like hoes&bitches.
Then end up getting your heart broken by one of those bitches.
Still haven't figured out how to take it.
Lost My Grandfather, Cousin and Aunt in the same year.
But I won't cry, no, I can't cry.
Have a lot of anger built up but Idk how to express myself.
Whenever I have something good in my life I tend to push it away.
I'd rather not inherit anymore pain, because my emotions are numb.
When I was a lil younger living up in Michigan I witnessed someone getting killed.
Tormented me ever since, two weeks later my best friend got shot by his own cousin over some bitch.
45 Hours later he was pronounced dead.
Haven't trusted anyone since, if your own cousin can kill you over a female then who can be trusted?
But on the side note, I may say stupid shit, may do stupid shit, may ask stupid shit.
But really I'm just doing that shit to see if you real or fake.
Now I hope you understand why I'm the way I am.
Now I've told you basically about myself and my lifestyle I grew up in.
This is probably the last time I'll write anything like this.
Because you know some of the partial answers.
& The only reason I told you this shit
From the heart.
I cannot afford losing you, as a friend, as someone I can trust, and as someone I can express myself to.
I may not be your co-worker anymore, but sure enough I'll always be there for you through thick & thin, good times and bad times.
Once again I apologize for doing dumb things at times.
One of these days I'll show my appreation to you.
Hope you have a good day.