Notes

yo you said you were going to sleep early, its late asf, so im gonna be honest with you about a thing rq and worry about it later :)

for what feels like a long while, i find myself having more than just friend feelings for you. i never even try to hint at it and have dated/talked with others instead because it doesn't feel right, if that makes sense, i mean its even frightening to admit. thats mainly due to the fact that i know its an unrequited emotion, it was definitely easy to repress + try to move past when you'd go afk for days. but now that the group is getting active again, we all talk a lot so its been a bit of a constant looming thought. the group being active is not bad thing, i love the times we all get to spend together lately, i guess this really eats at me because i value having a good friend who i trust and can always genuinely enjoy talking/laughing with.
overall i hope i havent been noticeably Fat lately, because my brain is dummy for wanting to jeopardize a friendship with someone i care about. i think by telling you, it'll make things awkward for a bit, which might be a good wake up call for me. eventually it'll be resolved and over with because i'll have moved on from liking you and you'll be on that jordynne bidness, plus the homies can still have good 'ol get-togethers and gaming nights as always

damn that was kinda venty and rambley, gn though