Notes

You ask me why i won't nap, i can't, you say you are texting "Friends" but what if that is a lie? Why do i always have what if's, if i didn't get cheated on so many times i wouldn't have to deal with this trauma and annoyance of my paranoia, I never asked to be this way, and i can't stand how i am, so i am sorry that i annoy / irritate you, i feel the same way about myself, it's nothing personal, you don't have to nap with me or hang out with me when you don't want to, don't do it because you feel bad, it isn't gonna achieve anything, i do not like one sided things, especially relationships, so if you want something / don't want something then do whatever, it doesn't bother me, if you want to break up, then go ahead, i can't stop you, i am the lonely girl in the back of class who gets picked on and shit remember? i don't get why people can feel bad for me, especially you, i don't get how you can love someone as disgusting and corrupted as me, it makes absolutely no sense, and i won't understand why unless you tell me.