Notes

I'm sorry I'm just now replying. I set my phone down for a while just to kinda have time to myself and my thoughts. I really wan't you to know that I don't enjoy being dishonest, and it's quite stupid my reasoning behind it. I know there's no way around it but I really don't want this to affect our relationship at all. Like I was saying, there's not really a reason I let it happen it just kinda did, It was a mistake and I really do regret it. I understand that asking you to trust me isn't exactly ideal right now, but I just want you to know that I wasn't being stupid, and I always try and make smart decisions, and often keep in mind if you would approve while making choices. I know that sounds pretty far fetched right now, considering the circumstances, but I want you to know I mean it. I also don't expect anything I say to be believed, but i'd like it do be heard anyway. I didn't tell you that night; not in an attempt to hide anything, I just honestly wasn't thinking and I didn't really think about it from a third person perspective, and how It was much bigger than it seemed at the time. Again, I'm not expecting anyone to fully believe anything I say, but I hope you can somehow relate and see what I mean.

If you do end up texting Ryan's mom, I just think it's important that you know that, Ryan didn't know about any of this. I just don't want Ryan to end up getting punished somehow since I was the one who made poor choices, and she did everything she was supposed to.