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I like a girl, I am an introvert, is there an introvert that is more experienced than me, please give a solution, I really appreciate it

this is my story:
I have now graduated high school, when grade 1 in high school, my life was normal like an introvert in general and not thinking of a girl, but when I went to grade 11, at first glance I liked a girl student who just entered school because she was staring at me the first time, at that time I had joined a photography organization at my school and took pictures of him shyly, I accidentally took a picture of him because I was then tasked by the head of the organization to take pictures in the school hall when the teacher was guiding new students, at sports he also looked at me and at that time I was very active in sports even though I was only pretending to not look like a loser and drained my energy (physically and mentally). Even when I went home I had met him with the girl's eyes.

During the day, I have participated in science festivals in schools, in my opinion, I am indeed a smart person in school, but I did not show it by not doing the assignments and scoring grades (you could say I reduced the grade to graduation standards). I then took a physics contest and made a project using gallons as a prototype to improve the efficiency of the use of fluid theory and when the announcement of all the contestants and members of science organizations entered the school hall, at that time the girl I liked also entered the hall because she joined the science organization but immediately announced I am not called, I also do not expect hahaha ..., but I also feel sad because of defeat, which makes my emotions when there is a voice from the back that is the same as the voice of the girl I like, but indeed my introvert soul instinced that it was the girl who voiced, she said "huh ... just a gallon" and laughed a little. I also think of that voice at home after school and I am no longer productive when I think of a girl. (the sound I heard was uncertain, but the voice resembled the girl I liked and the direction of the sound was linear with the girl's seat). because I thought the voice was that girl so I proved my intelligence.

in the verification process he still does not have a girlfriend, but when he follows the model per class. he followed it because maybe because classmates he asked (he could have refused but he did not refuse), even though in order to join the male and female models had to join hands, I was again assigned to take pictures of the school model, when it was her turn to go forward for the model and join hands, my heart is jealous that he is holding another guy and I see his Instagram (I have not followed him), he is spam like the guy who is coupled (before the model is implemented), I don't look at him anymore and don't care about him. the result might be because he thought I was away from him, he rarely likes the guy's Instagram (no longer spam likes, and starts to pay attention to me again) but still I ignore him (but also glance once again). and prove my intelligence by becoming a provincial-level science champion and national-level math competition (not winning for mathematics)

I was also convicted in the field for being late, of course with other late people including the girl I liked too late, when we were walking in one column position, the one I liked was in front of me, I took my breath out of my nose and sounded, at that moment he imitated me breathing out of my nose and sounding (he knew that I was behind him)

after that happened, I went up to 12th grade and the girl I liked went to 11th grade, this is where he started to act awkwardly, when I returned the book in the library it was seen sitting relaxed and when he saw me he was suddenly shocked and kept his style visible good (this happened 3 times)

I also won research competitions more than five times (mainly in physics) and got the champion, the mathematics competition and got the third prize, the third prize in the programming competition. and immediately I became famous at the school (this is not my style, I am very depressed even though very happy), many who want to take photos with me (average girl) and of course have a few haters (I think all of them from boys): #. I proved my intelligence by showing a little of my hard work to the girl I liked, so that the girl felt like I was fighting for her and wanted to get her heart on my own. in the end I got the number 1 physics research champion in my country, the competition was held by the university, this is where my popularity increased dramatically.

finally the girl I like keeps glancing at me and seems very happy to be near me, very happy indeed (I don't doubt this anymore). he also screamed I might to his friend, because I friend of mine once called my name when there was a girl I like (if I heard correctly)

I actually want to express my feelings but not so for fear that he is unfaithful and only likes my intelligence, I am introverted to take seriously the problem of love(more complicated than science and mathematics)

when he approaches another guy, doesn't he think about my feelings?