Notes

hi, stacey. i hope you're having a good night, day or whenever you happen to be reading this. ive seen you've been having a good time over social media, or at least i can hope. i also hope you stay happy and healthy and all that basic stuff.
i havent been doing so good myself. and i know it's so selfish of me to say and so petty I've even brought it up but you seem to have been out with others alot. im truly happy you're in a group of people you love, and if that doesnt include me it's fine. im sure ill manage. i just want to know whether that group includes me at all, even in the slightest. during holidays like this i brace myself to look at your snapchat story and the like, because i know you'll probably be with others and it just breaks me down. but i know deep down that I should be happy for you and i try, but it's just so hard to do that anymore.
we became close in year six, me you and shannon. wed play games in the playground and always chat in lesson. that carried into year seven, where we drifted from shannon and went to abbie. I was content and so so happy to be in a group like that. we went on sleepovers together and were always with eachother. there were a few times you didnt include me, but there were a few times I didnt include you and it was as equal as it could be.
then this started happening more.

at first i took it as normal, i was happy you were enjoying yourself and i try so hard to stay that way. im just selfish. i really wanted to be included, feel loved and have someone to talk to. i dont know much about friendships but im almost sure they're not supposed to be one sided.
I thought about checking up on you this holiday, asking whether you were happy and to stay positive. I didnt, because i knew you had people over often and it would be so selfish of me to take your time away from them.

please just know ill always be here for you, no matter whether you dont want me as a friend anymore not. because i think that's what friends really do.
thank you so much if you read this. so, so much.