Notes

Even then my only friends were made of paper and ink. At school I had learned to read and write long before the other children. Where my school friends saw notches of ink on incomprehensible pages, I saw light, streets, and people. Words and the mystery of their hidden science fascinated me, and I saw in them a key with which I could unlock a boundless world, a safe haven from that home, those streets, and those troubled days in which even I could sense that only a limited fortune awaited me. My father didn’t like to see books in the house. There was something about them—apart from the letters he could not decipher—that offended him. He used to tell me that as soon as I was ten he would send me off to work and that I’d better get rid of all my scatterbrained ideas if I didn’t want to end up a loser, a nobody. I used to hide my books under the mattress and wait for him to go out or fall asleep so that I could read. Once he caught me reading at night and flew into a rage. He tore the book from my hands and flung it out of the window. Okay this day haha oml, interesting day for sure, irdk what to say lol, ik things worked out in the end but I really hate myself for this day. Like IDK I hated that I put both of us in this position and almost a risked a friendship but ykw the past is the past and there is no point of overthinking it. Basically dude you looked hella cute that day like you were wearing your white shirt, (yk how much I love that shit) and aghh I just went crazy just looking at you oml. Also ugh okay so on this day I was hanging out with Trey at lunch and I told her like how I liked you and stuff ANd she didn't see how u looked yet, but as we were like walking and talking around she pointed at you and she was like dude that guy has hella nice arms, AND I WASSOJEALOUSHOLY. ur mine SMH okay yeah point is ur hot and everyone likes you and smh. okay other than that we all got fro yo after school and we were talking to sravya and I got low-key exposed for akhil smh, yeah and after that, me and mehul hung out after school, and dude IG talking to him made me realize how much I liked you as a friend and even more, like I was super conflicted because I really liked you,