Notes

I wish I would've picked up the phone,been there when you needed me the most I wish I would've texted you back cherished all the good times we had I wish I would've paid more attention and I wish I would've asked more questions I wish I would've been there for you like you were there for me and I know I cant go back in time but I wish I could. All of these feeling I'm having I really cant put them into words Honestly my heart feels shattered i'm trying to keep my composure but its hard when theres a dagger in my heart I cant believe that this is real,its been a week since you passed and I don't know what to feel you were my bestfriend my ride or die till the end that was the end and my brain just can not comprehend that your gone this pain just keep on hurting i'm screaming out to god cause I know you ain't deserve this i'm carrying this guilt on my shoulders, its a burden if you were here, I know you would tell me just keep on working through this but its so difficult without you here i'm in a ocean full of sadness filled with tears i'm n the depths of my mind and I can see clear and now all I really want is to make you reappear, you were my bestfriend my ride or die till the end and I cant believe that the ends here I'm drowning and I cant see clear, you were my bestfriend my ride or die till the end I cant believe the ends here this was supposed to last longer than did I cant believe that you'll never meet my kids I cant believe that its really over and i'll never hear your voice again as I grow older man. this is all crazy we was just on the phone you hit me up about my show and said you couldn't go you said earlier that day you stopped breathing My heart sank but it wasn't that hard to believe it cause I remember when I was with you when you fainted for the first time I look at it now and that was the first sign that your time was coming I should've understood there that your time was running out. and if I could I would go back in time but I cant and that's the reason I lose my mind because I should've been better to you I showed you love but I should've showed it better and I cant believe your gone forever, you were my bestfriend my ride or die till the end I cant believe the ends here im drowning and I cant see clear you were my bestfriend my ride or die till the end I cant believe the ends here, you taught me what real love looks like you showed how to live a life worth living every breath that you breathe was a breath full of love guareanteed, there never was a man that I met like you, you made time for every one even while you were dieing you were the greatest man that I knew but now I know you up in heaven man I'll see you soon i swear i'll carry on your legacy all of this pain has been messing with me mentally you were my everything man Grampa you were my bestfriend I hate that all good things have to reach an end, yeah No matter how much we spent there never was a right way to end there's never enough time to spend with the people you love the most now your gone and I'm broken I wish I held on to the words that you spoken I wish I told you there was no one in the world like you and one last time I wish I could say I love you, you were my bestfriend my ride or die till the end I cant believe the ends here im drowning and I cant see clear no I cant see no I cant see clear no I cant see no I cant see clear you were my bestfriend my best friend my ride or die till the end I cant believe the ends here im drowning and I cant see clear