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i feel realy bad, i really loved you, i still love you, i'll love you but how can i prove it to you. why don't you want to believe me. yes i said that u hate me and why? cuz i sent a photo with my eyebrown and it was joke, u know that. when everything was good... i really miss our good days, i swear i really miss. yes i didn't write from discord cuz we talking witf telegram or game, isn't it? you think that ayberk don't love me really. i am so sad for that you do not talking to me, formerly, sometimes i expected you to send the first message, like good morning etc. i was usually send the first message. if i didn't love you, why would i talk to you right now? for hug? for kiss? no, there is only one reason, tania. i love you. but i just think that i really don't deserve that, like not to say ily. i am sorry for my falses but you really don't understand what i'm going through. i really didn't fine and i told you repeatedly that i was crying, i was discussing with family, i was thinking to kill myself, i was thinking that what will i do etc. and i just wanted a message from you, only one message like ayberk are you fine? and i remembering that night, the day my exam was announced, we spoke and you could only one message. i really thought like that you don't wonder me. then you went on vacation, i saw that from telegram cuz u said that there is no see in my city and there was the sea in your photo. and i just waited for you to log in the game to talk to you. but i was very angry with you WHY? do you know? because the most valuable human in my life was not with me in my most difficult time but i forgot that. WHY? one reason, tania, just one reason. i love you. loving person forgive the person who loves him/her, isn't it? ok i'm guilty. are you innocent about not talking for 1 mont? for me yes and why. cuz you are my angel, tania. when you call me ayberk, my heart hurts so much. previously you were saying to me, honey, my sunshine, my ayberk, my lover, ure mine, ure my everything etc. tania, my love for you is not for these words. but i just miss them so much, to hear from you. but sorry for that bad boy. you didn't see my good times. maybe everything could have been different. things i have experienced. it was too bad for a boy 19 years old. tania, i'm just offended a little for that. i needed you in my darkest days .why weren't you with me :(( i don't know, everything getting worse. will time be good for you?