Notes

Hey Kris, I hope you've been well
I have exams this coming week so I've been slammed but I wanted to let you know I haven't stopped thinking about you and your well being.
I know we've had some rough moments and hurting you was never my intention.
I was irritated with how much we were arguing but I was never irritated with you.
I honestly want the best for you, and for you to move past anything that's bringing you down or making you sad.
I wanted to check up on you to see if you're okay and doing things that make you happy.
I also need you to know that I didn't keep you around just to take things from you, if that were the case I would just keep asking and asking.
I gave a little bit of space so you'd understand that the things aren't a necessity to me. Of course, material things make me happy. But things aren't everything.
I'm happy with you being who you are. Kind, full of life, caring, and amazing.
I don't want you to cry over anyone, I don't want you to cry over me. This is all I ever wanted for you, to feel fulfilled and to be healthy and happy no matter where you are or what you're doing.
I hope work is going okay, I hope your family is okay.
I've been trying to focus on school more because you told me that I should change at least one thing for my birthday, and this is what I need to get better at. I'm on top of my school-work, I manage my time for work so that I can pay my bills, and I'm trying to eat better. It's difficult but it's not impossible. I'm trying to address all of the questions and statements where we left off, before school you talked about the laptop, the only reason I got one is because I didn't think you got it yet and I needed one for school. We have assignments the very first day coming back so I don't want you to think that I did it out of spite or because I was playing with you. I genuinely thought you were doing your best to keep me happy and you were, and I wanted to be a big girl and clean up my own mess, if I broke it, I will fix the problem and try better. Thank you for the thought, and for always trying to take care of me.
I need you to know you've played a big part in helping me to focus, and to become healthier, and that I've never forgotten that you've only wanted the best for me. I know you don't like it when I say thank you, but thank you. Nothing you've ever done will go unappreciated.
You may think that I don't appreciate you, but I do. I was feeling overwhelmed and sometimes I need time for myself to do my own things. That doesn't mean I don't think about you. Anyway, all I'm trying to say is, you were never a disturbance to me. You were always a big help for me. We may have some tough times, but that's normal in any relationship, and I want you to know that I'll never stop wanting the best for you.