Notes

dear baby, As I am sitting here on my bed I cant help but think about you. its cold and I am tired but I cant seem to shut my mind off. It just plays you over and over again, and so does that note. so here is what is on my mind. Words cant describe how much I love you. I love every last thing about you. how you snore, how smile, how you walk. There is not a day that goes by that I don't think about how much I need and want you, how much I love you. the day you asked me out I did fall up a staircase lol. But I am glad that you are together. You brighten my day like the sun. You aren't only my boyfriend fiancée husband but your my best friend. I could do anything stupid or humiliating in front of you and you could care less. You probably love me more because of that. I love that I can be myself around you. And that you can be yourself around me. I want to walk down an aisle. I want to have problems and yell and scream. I want to make up and still want you after a fight. Every time we fight I just want to hold you and cry, because its over dumb shit for now. :) I think about having kids, about losing weight together, about us growing old together, about us watching our kids gradate and getting married, and mostly about loving for the rest of my life. If we broke up you would never love someone the way I love you. You are amazing. You may not be able to get me all I want but that is okay because I have what I want and that is you. When I first saw you my first thought was is that him. In a good way. And than I thought how could you want me, You are sexy and out of my league. I was so shy to talk. I didn't want to say the wrong think. There Is a lot of things you don't know about me and there is a lot of things I don't know about you. but I would love to continue to learn everything about you. That letter I wrote you on our 1 year has a lot of meaning behind it. It still does. I LOVE every last thing about. You are the perfect guy for me and maybe I am the right girl for you. You are my prince charming. My night and shining armor. There is so much more I just cant find the words. grrr................. I don't care what anyone says you are the best thing that has ever happened to me. Godsh I cant wait to marry you. To start a life with you. To wake up next to you and think wow our own home and my amazing husband, and beautiful kids of course. You are my one and only love. My first and my last I hope. I know I am a pain in the ass but please stay. I would do anything for you and no that doesn't mean a back massage everyday. God gave me you to show me how to love and I am learning. You give me so much hope, strength, courage, and confidence to be me and do what I want. I couldn't have asked for a better boyfriend. Well I guess I will stop there for now. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH BUB BUB. MUAH XOXO :)