Notes

before I get too deep I want to say I love you and that won't change, but with everything that's been building up its nothing more to say other than this isn't working for me personally and I know the same goes for you. I understand where you can see I just want to give up on us but I don't but it's more bs than happiness in this relationship. Its never a full day that can go by without either of us pissing each other off and I sat quietly for the longest. Plus I'm impatience, bipolar, and I'm wild with everything I do. I know I haven't listened fully and I've disregarded everything you were saying cause that's how I am if I feel cornered like someone is trying to come for me ofc I'm going to get mad and not listen to them and I already know when I'm mad I turn my anger towards everybody and ofc ik I do way to fucking much, but what am i to say if that's how I am and that's something that won't change about me just like how your attitude problem won't change. You feel as though I take everything you say and throw it out the window when I find that totally bazaar and maybe I am delusional but then again I'm seeing our relationship from my point of view and how I see it knowing how short tempered and hot mouthed I am I look at it like this I try I really do but if I'm upset I want to be left alone that's what I mean I WANT TO BE LEFT ALONE!!!!! LET ME COOL OFF BY MYSELF THAT'S HOW I KNOW BEST WHEN I'M BY MYSELF which I have said plenty of times but if you take me saying leave me alone cause I'm not in the mood to heart than your just not for me if you can't understand me and rock with me or have a problem with everything I do than we can't be together. Plus ik you're pissed about azea but let me just say this now yes I like her no I don't have feelings for her yes we talk but on a bonding level yes she knows about you because we talk like that she tells me about britney I talk to her about you it was never more than that we smoke, talk, laugh, and don't argue cause we save that for our relationships I'm sorry that it had to be another dyke that I'm finding confinement in but we click ab look at her as my little sister and if I'm being honest if I would've sent her a picture of us at prom she would've wanted to fight. But with everything that I'm saying I'm really just trying to apologize for everything for being rude, a bitch, disregarding your feelings, everything but I want you to be my friend I don't think I'll be able to be okay with you not in my life