Notes

Vivid Dreams:
1. So I used to have this really intense dream a few months ago. It stopped though i never could find out why
I can't really explain what I saw in the dream. I always remember animals for some reason though. That's it. It was just so odd that all I could see were animals.
It would always give an intense feeling. It's hard to explain fully but it felt like an something had a hold onto me.
It would always make me feel so small
The animals would always be making an intense sort of noise. Though I still can't register what the noise was.
I just know that the noise was really intense.
There was one dream. It was after I had gotten a new bad.
It's hard for me to explain it
The dream had the intense pressure and noise but it had something else.
It was like one of those towers where you had to hit parts of it off with a hammer without knocking the tower over.
Except the tower would just continuously fling pieces off. I never got to the end before.
I'm not sure why but it felt extremely horrible.
The best way I can explain it was if you were strapped to a chair as all your bones began to break. The person breaking your bones staring down at you as you try and scream in pain. With no noise coming out. Just intense pain with you capable of doing nothing about it.
The dreams then continued on as usual. The same intense noises and extreme pressure. It would never get any worse though i'm not sure if it could get worse.
Then one day I stopped having the dreams. I'm not sure why but the dreams had stopped though I think it may have evolved into extremely intense nightmares.
Whenever I lay on my bed, about to fall asleep. I always remember that intense pressure clutching onto me and those intense noises making it feel like I would explode if I didn't resist even a little bit.
Those are the only things I can remember from that dream. The pressure, the noise and the fact that there were animals there. Something tells me that my surroundings were pure white. The animals were almost unexplainable though they felt like they were giant, disfigured elephants. That's what I feel like they were. They may have been completely different.
I also feel like there was a man. A giant man there. I can't remember why he was there but something tells me he was there.
I'll probably talk about this after a bit of sleep. It's hard trying to explain this without the looming feeling of my brain collapsing

2.i couldn't really sleep too long sadly
due to a shitty nightmare
the nightmare or dream. whatever it was anymore. went like this
i am in a space. it doesn't feel like there's anything in there. it's not so dark that i can't see or so bright that i can't see
its empty
nothing is around me except for an entity
a pitch black shadow yet pure white light entity
it just loomed over me.
watching.
it gave off an intense pressure. not the same as the first entity.
it felt colder. yet warmer. it wasn't there to do anything. it was just there. watching
i couldn't move. i couldn't necessarily see either yet i knew what was around me. i could see everything without looking
i woke up after something happened. not sure what. but i woke up
that odd entity. that odd entity that gave off an intense pressure. i could see of its existence yet i couldn't comprehend it.
it wasn't like the first one. the first one, i couldn't see its existence. i couldn't comprehend its existence
so right now i am just trying to calm down and decide whether to go back to sleep or not.
its weird.