Notes

idk if its just because i'm stressed right now or i've just been paranoid, remember when i told you that my trust isn't 100% no more, and i should trust you 100 % because you didn't do anything to lose that trust. but i've been feeling uneasy idk if its because its just fresh or i really don't know , i feel like i haven't really settled with it because we did talk about it but i don't think i let everything that i needed to out there. i've just been rereading and rereading our conversations and i just felt incomplete. i love you so much i do, i wanna spend my future with you but in order for me to be able to share that with you i just wanted you to know that ive been feeling like this since yesterday and this note might not even go through you because im bipolar as fuck when it comes to these but i just want to let you know because you deserve to. i feel like ive hurt you enough, and it guilt trips me that i did that to you. it guilt trips the fuck out of me that i can do that to a person when it wasn't really a big deal, but i felt what i felt and i can't tell you how annoyed i am at myself . But you portrayed her like she was the girl you love so much and that you just want to have some sort of contact with her because she was that person she was your person, thats why i don't get what point you're trying to put across because no one tries that hard just to be friends with your ex. but idk its probably because of this show i'm watching too that they lost interest in each other in the long run and im just so scared that we've invested so much in this that it really doesn't turn out well , thats not new but i gotta put it out there.