Notes

One day I won't be here and when that day comes, I hope you feel regret in the actions you chose to take upon the time I was here. You never once stopped to ask what was wrong, you only assumed that I was angry, sarcastic and rude when deep down I was in a void of darkness with no escape and all I really wanted was someone to be there for me and you wasn't. You were meant to be my family and all i felt at most was a stranger in my own home.. I wanted to be happy, I wanted to be around you and although I wanted such a thing.. i distanced myself. I felt as though being by myself with my thoughts were best. I heard you, I heard your mean comments when I weren't in the room. But I know you didn't care if I heard them or not, But its far too late now and you can't take back what you said or did because I'm gone now, I'm just a memory of a child you once knew, a daughter you had that left with no return ticket back to "home".

I hope that one day you think of me and you notice that me not coming down until 3-4pm in the day wasn't because i was being lazy. No. I was awake, I was there in my room well aware of everything going on, my body just chose that me being away was whats best. I wasn't sleeping in till late or up till 3am on my laptop, I was laying in bed till 2am wide awake until my body caved in. I was awake from 10am, not 12 or 1pm, like you chose to believe because i was still away in my room. I know you'll still have bad thoughts of me, more than the good because its mainly what you chose to see. You see, I know you had your favourites in this house.. I wasn't one of them. But its fine now, You don't need to worry about me anymore because i'm gone now and i'm never coming back.

Goodbye...