Notes

I knew the whole time that us being friends wasn't going to work. i knew if i friend zoned you, you was going to flip. but i really don't know what you expect me to do anymore. you think i want to put you in the friend zone? i don't. but you and i both know i have to. i want to be with you so bad but i cant stay in a relationship where I'm uncomfortable anymore. the only reason i kept going with it after time and time of telling you was because i love you. yeah i still love you but with all the arguing and hate and negative shit that's been flying around that's the last thing i can think about. i don't understand why you kept convincing yourself that i was okay with it after i kept telling you always. our date was half way perfect. it was perfect for you because you weren't thinking about nothing. i just kept thinking in my head if we get caught she's going to break up with me or even worse shes never going to talk to me again. i didn't want to be left by you. your the best girlfriend I've ever had and i think your the best I'm ever going to have. your so pretty and so nice. and when i look at you and you smile your dimples show really good. you have a really nice personality and great you know what. but you aren't really seriously attracted to girls and i see why you wont tell people. i just noticed that telling people/ not telling people has a problem on both sides. Your not comfortable with people knowing and i'm not comfortable with people not knowing. i think it's pretty messed up tho. its not like I'm asking you to tell people, lemme clear that up. i don't want you to go and be like oh well im dating a girl named tasia noooo thats nothing near to what im saying. if someone see's us together i don't want you to lie. if we get caught i don't want you to lie. I'm not telling you to tell your parents helllllll no then I'll lose my priviliges of coming to your house to spend time with you even. I don't want your parents to find out period. If your people ever become suspicious thats when i would need you to lie.. lie your ass off. i just dont really get why you would have to lie to your other people tho. i don't want Yvette to know. you already know im scared of her. not physically but verbally. i hate being verbally attacked and she looks like she can do some damage