Notes

For Toaster,

Why did I make this? Probably because when I asked you out all I kinda said was "be my girlfriend :gun:" and called it a day and I feel like I show way to much affection but thats just cause im head over heels, and that I talked to angel on if I should do it and she agreed and said that I should do this, so why not. I've never expected nor wanted a internet or long distance relationship but after talking to you for a couple of years now shit I just started growing feelings. I think and still currently think it's because your easy-going yet jokeful personality. Even though you do have a short-fuse I learned how to cope with that so with that aside I thought you where perfect. When you confessed that you liked me and I shrugged you off, it was because I was so shy nervous and my brain was in a whole twist that I didn't want to come out as a person that'd say yes so easily. That's why I never said no directly but kept saying "I'll think about it" or something. Not gonna lie I used to get mighty jealous, though not as much anymore I still get jealous sometimes. So sorry if I act possessive or anything. When we where talking right after you accepted my proposal I was so in the moment I forgot that my phone was almost dead and I was out somewhere and I left my charger at home. I swear to god himself I strarted freaking the fuck out, my phone was at 0% and I wanted to say more but I knew it was going to die so before it died all I was able to type out was "I love you.", and it's true.

Even though when we VC I sound like a tired faggot cause every time you want to VC I'm always drowsy as hell but even if you cant see through my voice that my everlasting affection towards you I just hope your find in another way (hopefully through this message) that I just can't stop having my heart beat when im around you. Even if we can't see each other eye to eye and since its long term we are limited to what we can do seeing you send me a shit-load of heart emojis is enough to make my heart flutter. So i'm grateful for that, and for that I love you for showing the same energy as I am towards you. I hope this lasts as long as possible, and that even if something bad goes wrong and we suddenly break apart, you already know we can still be friends, best friends of course. Close friends, cause your a person who I see that's different in this community, and I love you so much for it. I think about you all the time, even though you look like the gender bend version of frozone I still think your way beyond pretty especially with your smile. I love how your lax and casual and yet a tik-tok anime weeb loli nerd.

I'll treat you better than sheep, I can promise you that. Though if you think im going overboard in which I kinda think I am, just tell me and i'll turn down the notch, it's just that I can't express myself enough to show how much love I have for you, and yeah, it's only ben a couple of days. But we've ben close friends for more than a year, and I thought that it was either now or never. Anyways Toaster I wish this relationship can last as long as possible, because I enjoy spending time with you, and I hope you feel the same way with me, I love you Vanessa.