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i dont really care that its a essay but im explaining my side of the story right now. this isnt to get me to add you or anything its to explain that im not a horrible person who spreads shit. i dont really know what to say anymore because i never did anything wrong to you never tried to hurt you never meant any harm or suffering literally did fuck all. and here we are you hate me and i still like you like im far from perfect we all are but i literally got messed about because of other people i never told anyone we went out BECAUSE WE DIDNT i just told people we were close and the you put on your story boyfriends hoodies that smell of their cologne am i right ladies and cameron sent it a group with all my mates going oo Ryan (eye emoji) then immediately i had jack male and shane messaging me like you go out with Tiegan g and i put nah were close but im trying for it cus that was the time when i didnt know you wanted to be mates. so then the rumours probably accumulated over school and then people would come up to me at school like "hows Tiegan" and then Connor d and the cancer rumour like ffs and then you were like i cant trust you. like dont you understand i told no one nawt apart from george tried to keep him informed about what was happening, then you were there like i cant trust you you might tell people. i have never been more confused about anything, its the most confusing thing. like dunno why i like you but i like you (laugh emoji) i literally did fuck all. i had a nice girl who was there for me and helped me with my brother and depression and all this bullshit but i dont think you understand that you were the cause of my depression cant even lie anymore i know that may sound extreme but its true cus i had never had my feelings played with before especially by someone i likeD so so much so i was just like well whats the point in living. eventually i just blocked you and tried to forget about you. But guess what no surprise i missed you so much. so i got Aston to message you and it led to a massive argument as you know.And then it just went all fucked up and eventually i realised i had no chance so i just numbed it for months and i got a girlfriend just to help and it did cus im so much happier. but you fd me up bad cus i know that you genuinely did not give a shit as you talked to so many other boys but me silly old me. i was all about you. you wanted "just mates because i was to nice" but i came to terms with it and then you telling Aston the fish eyed freak you was only my mate cus you felt bad for me like Fuck you genuinley literally the stupidest bitch, like you can go message Reece and that Ethan lad and forgot about me probably easily but me i had no one it played on my mind mentally affected my day to day life (loss of appetite,would sit and mourn at night,attempted suicides, and lots more things) and the crazy part is i did nothing at all. and yet i am being like called a scumbag and a liar like piss off man. you were always there for me and i bet you wont even have the balls to reply to this Tbh but you know all i am saying is i did literally nothing at all and got treated like i just committed triple homicide. George and Jamie were there for me and all but it was not enough for me i wanted you. but anyway i moved on as did you and i got a new gf and you know till this day i still have not done anything so bad i deserve to be hated or anything like that. i may have never said much to you at the field but me saying stuff comes overtime but anyway i guess all that helped me because i realised being too nice is a bad thing and i guess at the end of the day if i could go back i probably wouldnt have spoke to you knowing who you truly are. just someone who wants a ego boost and i wouldnt say you use lads cus quite frankly your a nice girl but you dont really take into consideration how the boy may feel so yano. i could literally go on for hours about how little ive done but i feel like ive explained enough.(btw this isnt to get a add just to tell you that i never did anything wrong and that i dont deserve to be hated by you all) and also the thing with Gabriel what because i came to the school and looked at you walk away he wants to beef me like wtf. and he dont like me like ive never met the kid and he dont like me because you probably told him that bullshit happened. call me a beg whatever im not even a beg its just when i actually care for someone i just cant stand the thought of them with someone else or them slipping away from me so i always try to keep close with them and when i loose people i care about i go so depressed unreal but i dont exactly have the confidence to just call them up and say sorry i just send these essays and hope one hits them in their feelings but at the end of the day i lost you nothing will change that as you hate me a lot you dont care or anything my guess is youll probably air this even though it took me a hour to write like i said this isnt to get you to un hate me as thats not possible even though i did shit all and i still aint got that apology you owe me from yesterday. At the end of the fucking day ik im not as bad of a person as you think. like shit im still unclear of wtf happened all ik is that i blocked you for not trusting me and i regretted it but anyway ive finally found my way to the light. After a depressing 2 month or 3 dunno how long its been i finally managed to move on whey!!! i have nothing else to say apart from i wish you luck with ypur life. put it on your story show people like i literally could not give 2 fucks there is still so much to explain on my side. and from the sound of it, it sounds like my side is a lot more darker then your side.

your side of the story you helped me out rumours were spread that you thought were from me you didnt want nothing to do with me. my side is this entire essay. you see the sheer difference between the two sides because i sure fucking do anyway i wish you the best i hope you acc have the balls to reply but you know what FUCK YOU!!