Notes

My life...sad, scary, depressing... it's so skrewed up how my life and a lot of others have to be so messed up.. I don't understand any of this non-sense i'm really only 11... I think and believe that i'm still too young to struggle this type of crap. School Is also messed up.. with all the fake friends and all the weird jerks that get inside your head and get stuck up in there... it might seem weird typing to a dumb online note pad. but I believe that it's a good way to express myself and no one needs to know..
My mom and grandma can't feel my pain and for sure my "father" I have a grandpa who thinks the total opposite of us.. my jerk head father left us for some fake person.. and tricked us.. again for the second time my mother didn't really care but.. I did. and so didn't my brother, I bet you that he doesn't even remember him right now.. but I do. He is the dumb reason that I can not sleep at night, hes the dumb reason that I cry every night. I trick my tia thinking im making a sad "musically" but in reality... I cry cause of what I vision.. when I was about four.. or five he left us.. one, two its bad enough that my grandpa is always so grumpy and selfish. he thinks that woman are the only ones that have to do the dishes....