Notes

Behold, my dreamworld.

An amethyst tainted night blue sky carpeted with an ocean blue as sapphire.

A mysterious beauty desiring to be admired.

I float amongst the other glistening stars that are gradually withering day by day.

Existing to live in the warmth of decay.

While patiently waiting for the end to give its final blink, with only so much to say.

Billions of years in this universe they have to endure.

With only knowing one thing for sure.

We're all waiting for the price of deaths toll.

To someday take us away.

I fall from the sky

To descend further into the depths of this lucid dream.

An attempt to break free from this misery in search of a better meaning.

Closing in towards a graveyard sea, calling for me.

I become submerged in this aqua wasteland.

Desperatly grasping upon the sparkling starlit surface for breath to breathe.

Inhaling the calm empty air filled with the taste of despair.

Tear drops begin dripping from above very suddenly.

Along with a chilling breeze that whistles underneath its howling wind.

Whispering a deadly lullaby.

Preparing to sing a storms dreadful tune that's brewing within.

Alone I lie.

Swaying in the eye of this tragedy.

Accompanied by the surrounding thunder clouds that bleed dark.

Thumping oh so violently

Like these echoes of regrets that bounce throughout the deepest corridors of my heart.

Breaking out into an ear peircing rumble.

Tearing up the foundation I thought I once knew.

Causing my mind to crumble.

Collapsing onto the figments of forgotten dreams that I once always tried to cling to.

Declaring war below the waters surface to get closer to the core of what has been eating me apart inside.

All just to soak myself in defeat.

Believing I've been theoretically dead for all of my life.

Just another empty shell when I arrived

While involuntary pumping my own heartbeat.

Desperately grasping at the concept of life one day at a time.

Asking my own questions for how and why.

Succumbing to the idea that every purpose comes with a lie.

All around me the tides turn and sway.

Being sunk into disaster, I'm not afraid!

My pathway fading.

Heart beating faster.

Here lies the staircase towards better years.

Flooded by own creation.

Thrashing about, in my ocean of tears.

My vision starts to fade.

But yet i still see the memories that flash by like lightning upon the surface of this never ending storms corrupted sanity.

These blood stained images give ritual to an undying purpose.

Conceiving a feeling of calm voidless emptiness.

Sinking further and further into this grey abyss.

Trying to understand the meaning behind this colorless lonelyness...

Drowning in this sea of uncertainty, the last ounce of my strength slips away.

Unconsciousness fades away my mind.

Recreating me of my oh so flawed design.

Awakening as i brace myself to relive fragments of this dreams aweful memory.

Behold, my reality.