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the people that think we are doing very well arent exactly wrong but also are most likely not my close friends. the last time we talked and were together was great, no tension or anything but if u really were paying attention, u'd notice that we havent been talking for a few days. i hear from certain people that she is kinda sensing the end of everything. The problem isnt that she hangs out w too many guys, i could care less for that bc i know she wouldnt cheat. i feel like she only thinks she loves me and is hanging onto a relationship or a love that isnt really there anymore. i think she takes me not texting her and giving shorter dry responses, as like the "i dont wwanna be w u anymore" and initially i had no idea and i wasnt really noticing anything out of the blue until recently. I know that ggiving dry responses and not texting her is an issue on my part however if she really loved me as well, she would make more of an effort to talk to me and communicate instead of kinda just let time pass and see our communication deteriorate. I hadnt been texting her as much because i want our main communication to be in person, not over text. but when i see her in person, its like shes kinda avoiding or pretendingg im not there. i want to approach her but shes already walking away with someone else. which is also why i think that she only thinks that she loves me. bc i feel like that if i wasnt with her she'd do just fine, it wouldnt really affect her in ways she thinks it would because she has so many people that she hangs out w and text everyday other than me. also we been kinda doing our own things the past few days, which is why i didnt realize anything because i thought it was just us giving each other space. in the beginning we texted so much because we were just so interested in each other that we wanted to know everything abt each other, but now that we know everything i feel like she thinks our relationship just isnt the same anymore. also when we texted, we had time to do anything we wanted together and now we have more limited time and days that just dont line up enough. another thing is the age gap and friend groups and everything like that. i and others agree that it is a lot easier for her to be with my group than me be with her group because i have no connections w her friends. our age difference makes a big difference i think because i dont see her at all during the school day since she is a sophmore and im a freshman and we have different classes