Notes

2003, im born. me my brother and my mom. i didn't have mind or brain to be able to mentally "think" so i was perfectly fine. at that time the world was in my hands yet i wasn't the one who controlled it. i was fine with that. moving on to the year of 2010. im 7 and its my first year of pre-k. none of that matters though because i was a kid. in the year of 2011 is when i was touched by my cousin but i didn't really know what was going on so there's no need to talk about it. i still think about it to this day and it disgusts me but there's nothing i can do about it. jumping to the year of 2015. this is when i could mentally and psychically start expressing myself more. i made friends, got along with everyone. life was good. only problem i had was i had thoughts here and there about my dad. but in my head nothing was really serious occurred. i remember this vivid memory of finding this newspaper in my mothers table of my dads face on it. back then i thought it had to do with him winning something so i kept it that way. 2016 is when there was a turning point for me. i started experiencing with different things and getting a better understanding of myself. problems started occurring that feared me i was doing bad in school, losing friends, etc. in 2017 i was 13 or 14. i had to decide whether i was attracted to boys or girls. in all honestly for a while i was confused on what i really liked and was unsure for a very long time. in 2018 i came to a conclusion i was straight and liked boys. 2018 and 2019 are currently the worst years ive ever experienced in my life. if i started explaining why, i could make a whole book series on whats going on. so for now, im keeping it to myself.