Notes

You call me up again just to break me like a promise / So casually cruel in the name of being honest



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“We can’t keep doing this.” Tessa says as she straddles him, both naked and in his bed. He grazes his lips on her shoulder, kissing gently.

“I know.” He says, kissing his way up her shoulder and neck, stopping to suck gently along her pulse.

Tessa moaned, pushing her hips, grinding against him. Her hands making her way into his hair.


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She was in the dressing room changing into her regular clothes when she heard the door open, footsteps approaching as she tugged her dress off, left in her bra and panties. She felt his hand snake on her bare stomach, his nose nestling into her hair in the crook of her neck, kissing gently.

“You’re so beautiful, Tess.” He said, his lips moving down to her shoulder.

Tessa pulled back a bit, turning to face him. “Scott we can’t do this here!” She said, placing her hands on his chest.

“I know I’m sorry, it’s just your so beautiful and you were so great out there.” He said, kissing her forehead. “We both were. We make a great team.”

“I know Scott, but we can’t!” She said, pushing against him, breathing heavily. She wants to, she wants him to just take her right here, but she knows it’s risky. “I want to, Scott. Trust me I really want to.” She says, her hands making her way into the nap of his neck into his hair, pulling gently. a slight moan escaping Scott’s lips. “but someone could walk in, and we have to get to the press conference.” She says, his intense hungry eyes never leaving hers, making her feel weak.

“I don’t care.” Scott says, wrapping his hands around her waist and pulling her into a kiss, immediately inviting his tongue into her mouth, he swallows her moans, kissing her more intensely.

Tessa moves her hands running through his hair as she kissing him, their tongues fighting for dominance. She realizes what’s happening, and removes her hands to put some distance between them. snapping him out of his gaze. “Scott I’m serious! You have to leave!”

“We’ll continue this later.” He says, winking. Squeezing her hand gently before making his way out.

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Scott Moir was such a fucking tease. The press conference couldn’t have gone worse, she struggled to answer questions, distracted by his hand grazing her inner thigh, making his way higher, she tried to stop him by grabbing his hand as if to hold it to make it seem harmless, to move him away. The look on his face made her wet. Her skin feeling flushed.

Afterwards they couldn’t keep their hands off each other on the way to her hotel room, their hands grasped as they basically ran out of the elevator and down the hall to her room.


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April 2005
Canton, Michigan, U.S.A



Canton wasn’t what Tessa thought it would be.

It’s already been a year since she and Scott moved here to train with their Russian coaches, but Tessa hated her host family. She hated how cold and unwelcoming her coaches were, and she had a hard time making friends at the rink since they all hated her and were spreading rumours about her.

Her only friends were Scott and Meryl but she considered Meryl more like an acquaintance rather than a friend.

Tessa walked into the rink early that morning, heading into the dressing room after signing in.

When she opened her locker to put her jacket away, she heard some of the other girls in the room talking.

“Oh my god did you hear Tracy went out with Scott last week?” One of the girls said.

“You mean Scott as in Scott Moir?”

Tessa froze, Scott didn’t tell her about a date last week? Why did he keep it from her?

“Oh yeah!” The girl said excitedly, “I heard she put out.”

Tessa felt all the blood rush from her body, her chest tightening and aching as her breath started to quicken. Why was she acting like this?

“No fucking way?” Laughed the other girl “did they really have sex on the first date?”

She heard one of them giggle.

“Yes! She told me!”

The other girl gasped. “Well did she say if it was good?”

“She said he was the best she ever had.”

They were both laughing now.

“Hot damn! Go Tracy!”

She heard one of the girls groaning, “Right? You know I always thought it would be Tessa and Scott that were doing it but I guess not.”

The other girl scoffed. “Oh please! Tessa is such a child and she’s so boring! No way could she ever get with Scott like that! I don’t think he sees her that way anyways.”

“Are you being serious? You’re just saying that because you want to be with Scott.”

Tessa couldn’t take it anymore. Her nerves were becoming worse, her hands were shaking as she felt her herself start to become lightheaded.

She quickly grabbed her skates and her bag, slamming her locker door behind her, causing the other girls in the dressing room to stare at her as she left and made her way to the rink.

Tessa tried to calm down as she sat on the bench to put her skates on, her fingers were trembling, her vision felt unfocused as she couldn’t stop thinking about what the girls in the locker room were saying.

She didn’t notice him walk up to her as she was trying to lace her skates.

“Hey tutu.” Scott said, smiling, causing her to jump a bit. The smile on his face vanished as he looked at her with concern on his face. “You okay?”

The tightness in her chest only grew, causing her to feel her breath shortening.

“No—I’m fine—“ she said, but she knew Scott could see she wasn’t fine.

Scott kneeled on one knee in front of her, their eyes locking as he grabbed one of her feet. “May I?” He said, gesturing to her laces.

She began to calm down as he looked at her. His eyes making her feel like home, like she was at peace. The pressure in her chest lightened as her racing heart slowed down. “Uh, sure.”

Scott gave her a small smile as he put his head down to lace her skates. She looked at the way his muscles on his arms and hands tensed as he pulled her laces tight. The horrid rink lighting countered every curve of his biceps and forearms and every vein in his hands.

She wondered how it would feel to have his hands on her body, squeezing her hips, her thighs, her breasts. She felt herself become flushed, heat rushing to her cheeks as she felt her arousal grew at the thought of Scott touching her like that.

Tessa could feel eyes on her and Scott as he finished lacing up her skates. He seemed to notice she was on edge.

“You okay, T?” He said, getting up on his feet. “Your hands are shaking.” He said softly as he put his hand out for her to grab.

“Don’t worry about me.” She said, surprised how level her voice was when he was looking at her like that, like she was the only one that mattered to him. She took his hand and stood up, feeling a bit lightheaded.

“You sure?” He said, placing his hand on the small of her back.

She brushed it off, his hand feeling like like a enlightened flame against her chilled back. “Yeah, let’s just practice.”

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“Good practice today, eh, T?” Said Scott, patting her shoulder as they walked out of the rink to head to the dressing rooms.

“Yeah, you were good today.” She said, smiling at him.

When they near the dressing rooms they noticed Meryl standing near the doors, once she caught their eyes she walked towards them.

“Hey guys!” Said Meryl excitedly.

“Hey Meryl.” Said Tessa.

“How was practice?”

“Good, we’re finally getting the hang on some of the lifts we improvised.” said Scott.

“That’s good!” Meryl said, nodding. “So I was wondering, Charlie is having a party tonight, and I was wondering if you guys wanted to come?”

“Oh I don’t know—“

“Yes, we’ll be there!” Said Scott as he placed his arm around Tessa’s shoulder and gave her a side hug.

Meryl clapped, sporting large smile. “Okay great!! I’ll see you tonight! It’s at 7:30 at his place! So don’t be late!” She said, waving goodbye as she walked away.

Once she was out of eyeshot, Tessa moved away from Scott’s grasp, turning to face him. “Why would you say yes?” She said crossing her arms.

Scott looked at her confused. “What do you mean?”

“Obviously no one wants me there.”

“What are you talking about, Tess?”

“As if you don’t know.” Tessa rolled her eyes. She looked at Scott and saw that he still looked confused. His hands on his hips as he looked at her like she says crazy.

“No T, I really don’t.” He said, firm.

Tessa shifted from one foot to the other as she avoided his gaze, dropping her head to look down at the floor. “All the girls here hate me. What are they going to say when they see me at Charlie’s party?”

Scott moved closer to her. “I’ll be there. You’ll just stick with me and they won’t say a word to you.” He said, giving her bicep a light squeeze, causing her to raise her head and meet his bright hazel eyes that were filled with adoration. She could get lost in them for hours.

She cleared her throat, looking down and picking ar the skin around her nails as a distraction. “I can handle myself Scott.”

“I know.” He said softly.

She looked up at him again, his lopsided smile gracing his lips. She wondered what it would feel like to kiss him.

“Just promise you’ll be there? For me?” He smiled wide and his eyebrows shot at an upward angle, he always knew how to make her laugh.

She rolled her eyes playfully, stiffling a giggle “Fine.” She said, hiding a smile behind her hand.

“Alright! I’ll meet you there, yeah?” He said excitedly, walking away so he could go change.

“Yeah.” She said softly, staring a bit too long at his ass as he walked into the dressing room. She sighed, walking into the women’s dressing room so she could change. She was screwed.

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Tessa thankfully got a ride from Meryl on her way to the party. She was wearing a spaghetti strap v-neck muted pink dress that stopped just above her mid thighs with black heels.

She was so nervous she could throw up. She hoped Scott would like the dress, she did pick it out hoping he would like it. She wanted him to see her in a different light rather than a partner and a best friend. She wanted more.

“Wow Tessa.” Meryl said when Tessa opened the door. “Trying to impress someone?”

Tessa rolled her eyes. “Shut up.” She said as Meryl laughed. Giving her a look.

“I’m just saying!” She laughed again.

“Whatever!” Tessa said, pushing her playfully. She could her feel her cheeks becoming rosey. “Let’s go. We’re going to be late.”

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They knocked on Charlie’s door once they got there, they could hear the thumping of the music blaring from the walls outside his apartment.

“Hey girls!” Charlie yelled as he opened the door.

“Hey Charlie!” Meryl said as Charlie moved to let them both in. Closing the door behind them.

“Drinks are at the far wall on your left and snacks are next to the kitchen. Help yourselves!”

“Thanks.” Said Meryl. She turned to Tessa gesturing towards the drink table. “Shall we?” She said. Giving Tessa a look before locking arms with her and leading them towards the table.

“Someone’s eager.” Said Tessa, laughing.

“After the practice week we had? Hell yeah I’m eager!” She said, pouring drinks for both of them and handing one to Tessa. “How are things with you and Scott?”

“You mean training or..?” Tessa said, taking a sip of her drink.

“Training.. why?” Meryl said, her eyes squinting slightly trying to read Tessa.

“No reason.”

Meryl’s expression softens a bit. “Is everything okay between you and Scott?”

Tessa sighed. “I don’t want to talk about Scott.”

“Why?”

“It’s complicated—“

“Hey Meryl.” A short girl approached them, getting Meryl’s attention as they both turned in her direction. “Charlie’s looking for you.” she said, grabbing Meryl’s arm.

Meryl groaned, glancing at Tessa. “Sorry, I’ll talk to you later okay?” She said before heading to Charlie.

Tessa sighed as she chugged the rest of her drink. Swallowing slowly, savouring the burning sensation as the alcohol slid down her throat. She poured another drink and chugged it down fast. She wanted to get as drunk as possible tonight. She wanted to forget about Scott and forget about skating just for one moment.

Tessa goes to pour thirds before she felt a large, familiar hand on her lower back.

“Woah T. You might want to slow down there.” Chuckled Scott, his lips pressed against her ear. She could feel his breath grazing her skin.

She quickly turned around to face him. His hand that was on her lower back is now pressed firmly on her waist, his face millimetres from hers as their lips ghosted one another.

“Scott.” She said softly, the alcohol catching up to her as her vision started to get fuzzy as she scanned his face.

Scott tightened the hand on her waist, giving it a light squeeze. “I’m glad you came.” He said smiling.

“I only came for you, you know.” She said.

“Good.” He said. His eyes were bright, sparkling under the dim lighting of Charlie’s apartment as they burned holes in Tessa’s skin. He leaned against her, pressing his lips against her ear once more. “Why don’t we go dance?”

Tessa shook her head. “I’m really not in the dancing mood Scott.”

“Why not?”

Tessa rolled her eyes. “I’m tired from practice, it’s been a long week.”

“Yes, and you deserve to have some fun!” He said, the hand on her waist traveling upwards, adding pressure as he settles on the side of her ribcage. His lips grazing her ear. “C’mon, dance with me? Please?”

Tessa felt intoxicated, not just from her drinks but from his firm touch. The pressure of his hand on her body, his lips pressed against her ear, his hot breath making contact with her delicate skin, made her feel lightheaded and caused her to feel her arousal grow. Her skin becoming hot as she felt herself become wet. Her heart beating out of her chest so hard and fast she could swear Scott could hear it.

She pushed away from his grasp. Putting distance between them as she tried to settle the pounding in her chest. “Then go dance with someone else!” She yelled. “I’m sure there’s a million girls in this room who are waiting to be swept off their feet by you!”

“What’s that suppose to mean?”

Tessa gritted her teeth. “Nothing.” She said firmly as she walked away from him, walking into the long hallway past the kitchen.

“Tess?” Scott yelled after her, trying to keep up with her as they avoided bumping into people.

Tessa turned sharply as she walked into a spare room, sitting on the bed and putting her head in her hands. Her heart beating a mile a minute, the thumping echoing in her ears. Her breath sharp and her vision unfocused, the alcohol making her feel lightheaded.

Scott approached her slowly, his breath short. “What the hell is going on with you tessa?”

Tessa was seeing red. Her fists tightening around her hair as she let out a groan. She could feel tears prick her eyes, threatening to fall. “You!” She yelled, facing him. “You are what’s wrong!”

Scott’s eyes widened. “What the hell did I do?” He yelled back.

Tessa groaned again. Why did she say that? She didn’t want to tell Scott she had feelings for him. “I don’t want to talk about this.” She removes herself from the bed, her body shaking as she made her way towards the door.

Scott grabs her arm firmly, stopping her from moving further. “Tess.” He said. His voice low and raspy.

Tessa felt her blood boil at his touch, his hand wrapped around her bicep, adding just enough pressure to mark her slightly.

She looked up at him, her breath shortening at the way his gaze was fixated on her and his bright eyes burned into hers, his pupils dilated. The slight smell of alcohol coming from his mouth as his hot, hard breath grazed against her neck.

Tessa felt herself sink as she wrapped her arms around his neck and smashed her lips against his. Their lips slotting perfectly against one another, giving herself to him as she pressed her body against his.

Scott groaned as he placed his hands on her waist and deepened the kiss, his mouth opening wider. His hands grasping her waist tighter, pulling her closer to him as their hips grazed.

Tessa moaned slightly, placing a hand in his hair as she felt his tongue graze her lips hard. She opened her mouth as his tongue slid against her own, her heart beating in her ears, her body was vibrating with lust as she felt herself become wet.

Scott felt his body become hot, hit dick tightening and throbbing as he continued to press long, deep, wet kisses against her lips, his tongue exploring her mouth as he drank her in. Their bodies losing in each other as they devoured each other’s mouths. His hand coming up to graze her jaw as he pressed her deeper into his mouth.

Tessa felt empty and everything all at once, Scott’s firm grasp was burning her yet she wanted more. Her core burning and soaked as it ached for Scott’s touch.

Tessa pulled herself away suddenly from Scott’s lips. Her vision hazy, her body vibrating and shaking and her head spinning.

They were both panting, Their lips swollen and red. Their eyes locked as Scott’s hand grazed her cheek softly. "That was…" He began, completely breathless. Her hand resting on his chest as she felt his heart racing against his her shaking palm.

"That was…” Tessa said in between panting breaths. “.. Wow," she finished. Laughing a bit. She could feel the heat coming from her flushed cheeks, realizing they’re probably stained red from her arousal. She tilted her head down to the ground, feeling embarrassed by her state.

Scott gave her arm a light squeeze. Pressing his fingers against her chin, tilting her head upwards so her eyes met his. “Maybe don’t tell Marina about this?” He said breathlessly. Smiling a bit.

She laughed, a breathy, sexy laugh. “Don’t worry.” She said, biting her lip as she looked at him.

“Did you..” Scott started, leaning against the wall. “Did you like it?”

Tessa giggled, was he really asking her that? “Yes.” She said, a playful smile gracing her lips. “I loved it.”

Scott smiled softly, looking at her as if she hung the moon.

“I want to do that again.” Tessa said, leaning forward, her lips hovering milimeters against his, their hot breaths against one another as she brought her hands to his hair.

Scott felt his blood boil again, his body humming with arousal as his dick tightened against his boxers. “Tess, your killing me.” He said, closing his eyes and resting his forehead against hers. He was about to kiss her again before he heard footsteps behind him.

“Hey Tessa—“ yelled Meryl as she caught them off guard.

Tessa and Scott immediately separated, Tessa’s hands still resting against Scott’s chest.

“Oh—sorry—“ Meryl said, looking between them. “Was I interrupting something?”

Tessa removed her hands from his chest, letting them rest by her sides as she moved a few steps away from Scott. “Uh—no—no, why? was there something you wanted?”

“I’m heading out, I wanted to know if you needed a ride home?”

Tessa looked at Scott, he only smiled at her and gave her a slight wink. Tessa smiled back, turning towards Meryl. “Uh, yeah, I would like that thanks.” She said, walking behind Meryl before turning towards Scott.

“See you tomorrow?” She said, giving his hand a light squeeze.

He squeezed back, looking deep into her eyes.

“Yeah, I’ll see you tomorrow.”

—

When she got home and was in bed, she slept soundly that night, butterflies in her stomach and their shared kiss replaying in her head.

—

Tessa couldn’t help but feel warm inside as she walked into the rink. Excited to see Scott again.

As she was walking towards the changing room after signing in, she noticed a group of girls staring at her near the water fountain.

She felt her skin begin to crawl as she tried avoiding their gaze, she felt uncomfortable. Why were they watching her?

She was going to head inside the change room before she saw Scott walk out of the boys changing room.

Immediately she felt her heart grow in fondness at the sight of him, his hair fluffy and unruly, wearing a tight white t-shirt that hugged his pecks and abs deliciously.

“Hey Scott!” She said, trying to keep her voice even.

“Oh, hey T.” he said. Coming closer to her. He wasn’t looking at her.

Tessa immediately noticed there was something wrong.

“Scott, you okay?”

Scott sighed. Rubbing his hand against his eyes.

“Look, Tessa..” he started, his voice hushed as he leaned in.

“What?”

She noticed Scott seemed uncomfortable, like all eyes were on him. She did notice the group of girls staring at them when he came up to her earlier.

Scott didn’t answer, he grabbed her hand, his grip firm as he lead them to a quieter place where they could be alone. Without people watching them.

Tessa was starting to get worried, was it something she did?

He stopped walking once they got to a place where they were alone. He squeezed her hand gently as he took a deep breath, looking down at the ground as his other hand was fidgeting at his side.

“Scott..” said Tessa, she knew there was something wrong, but she tried to keep her voice level as her anxiety started building in her chest. “What’s wrong? Are you okay?”

“Tess, it’s okay. Everything’s fine..” he started, lifting his head to look up at her. “It’s just.. what we did last night.. we can’t do that again.” He said softly.

She knew this was coming. She knew that this was going to get in the way of their partnership.

Tessa flinched a bit. She thought that he wanted to be with her, that what they did last night was special. “Why not?” She said, her voice clipped.

Scott looked at her with wide eyes. “Tessa everyone’s taking about us! I don’t want it to get back to Marina! And I’m sure you don’t either!”

Tessa sighed. Rubbing her temple as she closed her eyes. “No, you’re right. I’m sorry.”

Scott moved closer towards her. “You didn’t do anything, T. I liked what we did last night, loved it even, but we have to be careful.”

Tessa nodded. “I know.” She said, still feeling hurt by his words. “Look I don’t want to talk about this. Can we just practice?”

Scott sighed. This was just like Tessa, constantly avoiding talking about her feelings. Shutting people out.

Tessa knew he didn’t like it when she tried to push her problems under the rug. They had to talk about it sooner or later. When did things get so complicated that they just brushed it off?.

“Fine.” He said, his voice tight as he walked away. Leaving Tessa alone in the hallway.

She felt tears prick her eyes as he walked away. She felt hurt, like her feelings for Scott were invalid.

Tessa felt so stupid. She tried to compose herself before heading back the to the changing room, keeping her breath level and her shaking hands under control as she tried not to let sobs escape her quivering lips.


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June 2005
Ilderton, Ontario, Canada



Tessa had been invited to a cook out from the Moir family. She wasn’t looking forward to going, especially since Scott was going to be there and she’d been trying to avoid him since their little slip up last month.

“Tessa!” Scott’s mom, Alma, exclaimed as she opened the front door enveloping Tessa into a tight hug. “How are you sweetheart it’s been so long!” She said as she squeezed Tessa.

Tessa squeezed back, laughing slightly. “I’m good Alma.” She said, a large smile gracing her lips. She loved Alma like a second mother. She considered the entire Moir family her second family. “I missed you so much!”

“We all missed you! Oh, it’s so nice to have you and Scott home after being gone for so long! How’s training?”

“Trainings good. We’re figuring out what we want to do for next season so it’s been great.”

“Oh that’s wonderful! I’m so proud of you!” She said, squeezing Tessa’s arms as she gave her a large smile. “If your looking for Scott he’s out back helping his brothers with setting up the tables.” She said, straightening the bow of her apron.

Tessa froze slightly, her heart quickening at the mention of Scott’s name. “Uh—no, I—I don’t want to bother him.” She said as Alma gave her a weird look. “Is there anything I can help you with?” She said, picking at the skin around her nails.

Alma noticed her fidgeting. She grabbed her hand gently as she looked at her. “Honey, is everything okay with you and Scott?”

Tessa took a deep breath. She didn’t want to lie to Scott’s mom, but she didn’t want people to know about what happened between them. “No. Everything fine. I swear.”

Alma didn’t seem convinced, but she didn’t press further. “Well alright. Why don’t you come help me in the kitchen while we wait for the boys to finish the tables, yeah?”

“Yeah, okay!” She said, letting out a shaker breath as she followed Alma into the kitchen.

Tessa freezes in the doorway as Scott came in through the back door and into the kitchen. Their eyes locking instantly, as if they were the only two people in the room. God he looked so good, dressed in a tight white t-shirt and grey shorts, his hair fluffy. Just the way she likes it.

“Hey, Tess.” Scott said softly as he looked at her with adoration in his eyes. Why the hell was he looking at her that way!?

Tessa felt her cheeks become hot, her breath quickening at the way he was looking at her. His eyes were hypnotizing. She clears her throat as she removes herself from his fixated gaze. “Hey.” She said back softly, avoiding his fixed eyes. She could feel them burning holes in her back as she walked over to Alma.

Alma looked between the two of them. She clearly knows there’s something going on between them. But instead of intervening she dismisses her son. “Scott, why don’t you take these to your dad and go help your brother with the tablecloths, please?” She said, handing Scott a plate of raw meat patties.

Scott didn’t look at his mom. His gaze was still fixated on Tessa as he grabbed the plate from Alma. He gave her a soft smile before heading back outside.

Tessa let out a soft shakey breath, her chest tightening with sharp pain as her breath felt quick. Making her feel unfocused, lightheaded, and dizzy. Why was he doing this? Why was he making her feel this way?

“Honey? Are you alright?” Alma said softly, her hand pressed lightly on her back as she guided Tessa to sit on one of the bar stools.

“I—I’m sorry.” Said Tessa. Trying to even her breathing, a hand on her chest as she took deep breaths.

“Sweetheart, if you need to talk I’m here for you.” Said Alma, rubbing soft circles along Tessa’s back.

“I’m fine, thank you.” She said, but she wasn’t fine. She didn’t need to bring unnecessary drama into their lives just because she had feelings for her skating partner of 8 years.

Alma went to grab a cup and fill it with water. She moved back to Tessa. “Here dear.” She said, handing Tessa the cup.

Tessa took the glass and drank long sips the cold water steaming down her throat felt refreshing on this hot day in June, her heart calming down as she drank more.

“Girls?” Scott’s older brother Danny popped his head in the kitchen.

“Yes dear?”

“The foods ready if you want to come.”

“Okay just give us a moment thanks Danny.”

—

Tessa avoided Scott as much as she could when the food was ready to eat. They all went into the backyard of Scott’s parents home.

Tessa grabbed a hamburger from the table and some condiments before heading back to the large table near the porch. Sitting next to Scott’s cousin Cara.

“Hey Tessa!” Cara said, hugging Tessa as she sat down.

“Hey Cara!” Tessa said, hugging her back and settling in her seat. They chatted about Cara’s skating competitions and her dog before she noticed Scott had sat himself right across from her seat.

“Ladies.” Scott said in a bit of a playful tone. “Hope I’m not interrupting anything.” He finished, giving Tessa a wink.

“You’re not I was just telling Tessa about our routines.”

“How’s that working for you and Sheri by the way?”

—

“I still want to do it again.” He said, smirking.

Tessa gave him a look, she was confused. “But I thought you said we can’t?”

“No one has to know.” He said, winking.

“Quit playing games Moir.” She said flatly.

“I’m sorry for how I acted last month.” He said softly. Taking her hand gently stroking her knuckles with his thumb.

“I was caught off guard with everyone talking about what happened last night. I want this Tessa. But we can go as little or as far as you want on your terms.”

“I don’t want to ruin what we have Scott.”

“And I don’t want to hurt you.”

—

“Just shut up and kiss me.”


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November 2005
Ilderton, Ontario, Canada



Scott leaned against the church window, gazing out into the blizzard that just so happened on the afternoon of his brothers, Charlie’s, wedding.

He felt his brothers hand clasp his shoulder as he stood next to him. “Geez when will the snow let up.” said Danny, gesturing to the blizzard outside, the snow falling thick on the pavement. “Lets hope it lightens up before the bride shows up. I heard it’s snowing 15cm tonight!”

“Jesus” Scott says. Walking away from the window.

“So, uh, how’s Michigan? How are things with you and Tessa?”

“Uh, it’s good.” Scott said, his hand rubbing the back of his neck. He wasn’t about to let his brother know of his secret affairs with Tessa. “We’ve been practicing a lot on our programs for the Canadian Championships in January. And if things go well, then, hopefully Four Continents in February and Worlds in March.”

“Yeah? That’s fantastic, eh? I’m so proud of you!” He said, leaning to hug his younger brother.

Over Danny’s shoulder Scott noticed someone walk into the church. It was Tessa and her mom.

She took his breath away. He couldn’t stop staring at her as she walked down the aisle to say hi to his mom, hugging her. she looked gorgeous. Light makeup, wearing a lilac flowy dress that stopped just above her mid thighs. Her brown hair slightly curled and pinned in a low bun.

“Yo Scott!” Said Danny, snapping in front of his face to get his attention. Scott snapped out of his gaze. “You alright?”

Scott looked over at Tessa again, and sighed. “Yeah. I’m fine.” He said, clenching his jaw and putting his hands in his pockets.

Just then, the priest walked up to Scott and Danny, letting them know the wedding was about to start, and gestured them to stand next to their brother at the alter.

When Scott stood alongside Danny at the alter he locked eyes with Tessa in the crowd full of his family members. Her intense green eyes piercing into his. She gave him a small smile and wave. He returned it, a lopsided smile gracing his lips.

———

The ceremony was beautiful. The bride and groom cried as they said their vows and everyone cheered during the final kiss.

Now at the reception, Scott sat at one of the tables, keeping his eyes on the door until Tessa arrived. He felt the light touch of a hand being placed on top of his, looking to his side to see his mother.

“Honey why don’t you go grab a drink. You must be tired from all the practice you and Tessa have put up with” His mom said. Squeezing his hand. He squeezed her hand back gently, giving her a soft smile.

“Yeah I will, thanks mom.” She kisses his temple as he gets up to go get a drink.

Once he’s ordered and received his drink, he turns around and sees Tessa walk through the door. Taking his breath away once more.

They lock eyes. The room feels like it’s in slow motion, like they’re the only two people in the room. Scott feels a lump in his throat as he sees Tessa walk towards him with a smile across her face. “Hey, Tess.” He said, putting his drink down to give her a hug.

She wrapped her arms around his shoulders, as Scott wrapped his arms around her waist. Tessa rested her head against his shoulder. “Hi, Scott.”

They stayed like that for a couple of moments. He moved his hand towards the nape of her neck, giving a light squeeze, he leans his head down, nuzzling his nose where her neck and shoulder meet. He closes his eyes to savour this moment between them. Before letting go and looking deep into her eyes. “You look so beautiful.” He says gently, grazing his hand along her neck.

“Thank you.” She says, leaning into his touch. “You don’t look so bad yourself.” She giggles.

He laughs.

“I should get back to my mom. I’ll see you later?” Tessa whispered, a fire enlightened behind her sharp green eyes. Scott felt his pants tighten.

“Ye—Yeah. Sure.” He said, watching Tessa walked back to the table her mom sat at, swaying her hips as if to taunt him. God that dress looks so good on her he thought, swallowing hard, and running a hand through his hair as he breathed deeply. Trying to compose himself before he grabbed his drink and headed back to his table.

———

An hour or two had passed, the newlyweds had cut their cake and had their first dance. Now everyone was on the dance floor having the time of their lives. Scott was dancing with his grandmother when he caught Tessa’s eye, sitting at her table. He excused himself, walking over to Tessa. He sat in the chair next to her.

“Hey T bone! Enjoying the evening?” He said. Pouring himself a glass of water and taking a sip.

“Yeah. It’s so beautiful Scott!”

“Thanks.” He said, he couldn’t stop looking at her. She looked so beautiful. “Come dance with me.”

“No thanks. I’m fine here.”

“C’mon Tess!” He said, placing his hand out for her to take.

“No. I’m good thanks.”

“Just one dance!”

She stayed silent for a bit, her eyes piercing into his. “Okay.” She said, taking his hand as they made their way to the dance floor.

An upbeat song about dancing in a club played as Scott faced Tessa on the dance floor. He placed his hands on her hips, pulling her closer as she places her arms on his shoulders, moving her hips to the beat of the music.

Tessa placed her hands in his hair, their eyes locking as she gave him a wicked smile. She danced closer, almost grinding her hips against his. Their hips swaying to the music. Scott touched his forehead against hers. Their breathing becoming hard as she danced closer. He needed to calm down. He wasn’t about to get a hard on in front of his family members.

The end of the song faded out and transitioned into a slow number. Scott tried to regain control as he let go of Tessa. Their breathing still hard. He gave her a soft smile as he offered his hand for one more dance.

“What do you say Virtch?” He said, giving her a wink.

Tessa only smiled as she took his hand, he squeezed it gently as he took her other hand and led them to wrap around his neck as he placed his hands firmly on her hips, bringing them closer. As they swayed to the music he nuzzled her nose. Tessa looked deep into Scott’s eyes. She couldn’t stop smiling. Scott moved his hands on her lower back, rubbing gently as he moved to graze his lips along her jawline. Causing Tessa to moan softly. As she wrapped her arms tighter against his neck and pulled him closer.

They could feel people’s eyes on them, To everyone else, it just looked like Tessa and Scott. Two best friends and skating partners for 8 years. But if only they knew what was really going on between the platonic skating duo.

Scott rested his check against hers as they continued to sway to the soft beat of the music. He looked at her with fire in his eyes, her eyes were sharp, yet almost hazy with lust.

Tessa felt herself flush. Her breathing became short, her chest tightening as Scott leaned into her. Pressing himself closer to her as he whispered in her ear.

“Why don’t we get out of here, T?”

All Tessa could do was nod.

Scott immediately took her hand and guided her out of the hall as they scoured for a place to be alone. Scott looking behind him every few moments to see if anyone was looking or following them.

They came across a closet on the far side of the hotel, Scott silently thanked god that it wasn’t locked. He double checked, looking around once more, making sure there was no one around. He led Tessa into the room, a hand on the small of her lower back. He closed the door behind them. He turned around to face Tessa, taking her in. Her glowing green eyes, her flushed soft skin, her polished hair, and that dress. Jesus Christ it did things to him.

“Come here.” He said softly. Placing his hands gently around her wrists and pulling her towards him. He immediately cupped her face and kissed her, her lips, soft and plump against his own as he immediately invited his tongue into her mouth. He’s been wanting to kiss her since he first saw her earlier that day.

Tessa placed her hands along his waist. She moaned, opening her mouth wider for him to explore, tightening her grasp on his suit jacket as she moved her hands along his back.

Scott backed them up to the far wall, crushing her against it as he kissed her with deep force. Scott stopped for a split second, gazing Tessa up and down her body. He bit his lip. “God, you look so fucking good in that dress.” He said.

Tessa laughed, breathless, yet sexy. “I picked it out for you.” she said. Her checked were flushed red, her eyes only sparked that much brighter. Causing his pants to tighten.

“Fuck.” He groaned. He kissed her again. His thumb grazing her jaw, bringing their faces closer together, deepening their kiss, their tongues exploring each other, fighting for dominance.

Tessa moaned loudly as Scott bit her lower lip, his hand lowering to graze her shoulder, moving lower to graze his hand along her breast. He could feel her hardened nipple. He felt intoxicated, his pants tightening even more.

Tessa felt hot, her face flushed, her lips swollen, her heart was beating out of her chest. She felt dizzy as Scott pressed his lips against her once more, swallowing her moans as he began kneeling her breast with his hand, pinching her hardened nipple. She moaned loudly again, putting her hand against his to encourage him to keep going. He moved his other hand slowly to her waist and along her hip bone. She grabbed his hair, tugging lightly. A groan escaping his lips as Tessa kissed him deeper. She felt something nudge her hip, before realizing that it was Scott. She froze for a moment, stopping the kiss glancing up at Scott who looked concerned.

“You okay, Tess?” He said, his breath uneven and hot along her neck as her head tilted back. Giving her soft kisses along her pulse.

Tessa moaned “No, no. I’m fine— please— don’t stop.” She said, tugging his hair again.

Scott brought his head back up to face her. Removing his hand from her breast and placing it on the back of her neck to pushing them into a deep kiss, swallowing each other as he coaxed his tongue against her lips, opening them once more as their tongues explored each other. Deepening their kisses, moaning, hungry, passionate wet kisses. Tessa clawing her nails into his neck, trying to have more, more, more. Bucking her hips into his as he kissed her jawline and down to her neck.

Scott slides his hand down her body, grazing her waist and hips squeezing gently. Their breathing hard and hot as Tessa moved against him, looking into his eyes.

“You want to do this?” He asks, breathless, touching her nose with his. Their eyes locking. He could get lost in them for ages.

Tessa smiled, kissing him gently. “Yes.”

Scott locks eyes with her as he moves his hand under her dress, grazing his hand gently along her, from her knee to the the base of her inner thigh. She moans slightly. He does it again, and again, getting her worked up. Tessa nudged him, frustrated. “Scott please!” She yelled, breathing hard.

Scott smiled, moving his hand to coax her legs apart, wider. He leaned in and kisses her lips softly for a long moment, she puts her hand in his hair, pulling slightly as he moved to kiss and bite along her jaw, moving down to her neck. Sucking gently along her pulse. She moans again pulling his hair harder. He moans back, coming up to face her. They both were breathing hard, their breaths hot against one another.

Scott moves his hand up her inner thigh again, Tessa spreading her legs further. He reaches the end of her underwear, feeling thin lace. His heart began to race. Her core radiating heat. “Fuck” he groaned. His breathing becoming hard again as he began gently stroking Tessa’s core, feeling her underwear soaked. “Jesus Christ, Tess” Scott whispered along her ear, kissing lightly as he moved his hand slowly up and down her centre. a moan escaped Tessa’s lips as she bucked her hips slightly, encouraging him to move more.

Scott was about to move her underwear aside they heard the door handle open.

Fuck Scott thought. His heart racing a mile a minute. He forgot to lock the door.

Scott and Tessa immediately freeze, Scott’s hand still under Tessa’s dress, he moved his hand as the door opened. Scott’s brother Danny standing behind them.

“Scott, Tessa?” Danny says, a confused look on his face.

Scott squeezes his eyes shut. “Shit!” he whispered, he felt his body stiffen against Tessa. He can hear her heart pounding against her chest, her breath hitching.

Danny turned on the lights. His eyes landing on the state of the two kids in front of him, their hair was messed up, their faces were flushed and their lips were swollen. Their breathing was still coming hard as they tried to catch their breath.

Scott could see anger build across Danny’s face as he gestures between them, confused.

“What the hell is going on here!?” Danny yelled, raising his voice.

Scott felt frozen, his face going white as he held Tessa’s hand tighter.

“What the fuck are you two doing!?” Danny yells again, grabbing Scott’s jacket near his neck and pulling him out of the closet.

Tessa felt herself panic, not wanting Scott to get hurt. She follows them outside as Danny slammed Scott against the wall, hands fisted in his jacket.

“Danny please we can explain!”

“What the fuck did we tell you Scott!? Huh!? What the fuck did we tell you about getting close with Tessa!?” He yells, his face red from how angry he was at Scott.

Scott didn’t know what to do, he only raised his hands in surrender. “Danny please we can explain!” He said, looking up at his brother who looked like he was about to punch him. “Don’t cause a scene man!”

Tessa started to tear up. Looking around making sure there was no one around watching them.

“Danny, please don’t hurt Scott! We’ll explain—just don’t hurt him—please!”

Scott can see Danny start to calm down. He let go of Scott’s jacket and backs away a bit.

Danny looked down at the ground, sighing as he places his hands on his hips, looking between Scott and Tessa. He still looked angry. “Explain. Now.” He said firmly, raising his voice slightly.

Scott and Tessa looked at each other. He knew Tessa didn’t want anyone to know about their situation. Let alone his family. He sighed. Turning to Danny. “We were just fooling around. I’m sorry it won’t happen again.”

He felt Tessa relax, letting out a deep breath.

Danny turned to Tessa. “He didn’t force you to do anything, did he?”

Tessa immediately came to Scott’s defence. “No! No! It wasn’t like that! No, we were just fooling around it was nothing! It meant nothing Danny I swear!”

Scott felt a bit hurt by her comments, even though he knew she didn’t mean it.

“Okay well stop fooling around. Last thing we need here is for a sixteen year old to get knocked up.”

“Woah! woah! Danny it’s nothing like that we were just kissing!”

“Then stop! Stop all of this! Do you know how bad this could be for your partnership? Have you thought of that?” He said, getting angry again. “How long has this been happening? Huh?”

Scott felt frozen, sighing slightly. “It was just a one time thing! Seriously Danny!”

“We promise it won’t happen again!” Said Tessa “just please don’t tell anyone.”

Danny sighs. Pinching the bridge of his nose as he looks from Tessa to Scott. “Alright.” He said “but if I catch you two like that again—“

“You won’t” interrupted Scott.

Danny sighed again. “Okay. Tessa, go back to the hall. Scott and I will join you in a few minutes.”

Tessa just nodded before giving Scott a quick glance, an apology written across her face, then made her way back to the hall. Leaving Scott and Danny alone in the hallway.

A few moments passed, silence seeking the halls as they stood there. Scott clenched his fists. Angry at himself, he puts his hands in his pockets, turning to face Danny. “Look Danny, I’m sorr—“

“We’ll talk about this later.” said Danny. His voice firm. He gestured Scott to walk back to the hall.

———

Scott and Tessa avoided each other the rest of he night. He felt awful. He didn’t mean to embarrass her like that.

Once the reception had died down, nearing 11pm, Scott was standing with his dad outside the hall chatting with family members when he noticed Tessa and her mom are about to leave. He sees them talking with his mother. An opportunity he takes his chance with.

Scott made his way towards them, his stride quickening in hopes that Danny isn’t around. He stands next to Tessa. placing his hand on the small of her back. He feels her tense a bit.

“Ladies.” He says, trying to sound smooth. “I hope you enjoyed your evening?”

Kate giggled. “Yes Scott, it was such a beautiful wedding! Great reception too! And the food!” She exclaimed, turning towards his mother. “Alma you need to give me the phone number of the caterer you hired because the food was absolutely delicious!”

“Oh no problem! I’d be happy to give you his number!” said Alma, going through her purse to grab a paper and pen.

While their mothers were talking Scott moved his hand towards Tessa’s waist and giving it a gentle squeeze, causing her to look at him. “Tess, can we talk?” He said softly so their mothers wouldn’t hear.

Tessa nodded slightly. She turned towards her mother. “Mom, I’ll be back in a bit.” She said.

“Alright, don’t be long though!”

“Yeah don’t worry!” said Tessa as Scott led her to an empty hallway. A hand on her lower back, leaving them alone for the moment.

Scott cleated his throat as he looked at Tessa. “Tess, I’m so sorry for what happened with Danny.”

Tessa smiled a bit, placing her hand on his bicep. “don’t be. It wasn’t your fault.”

Scott laughed a bit. “Well, yeah, it kind of was. I forgot to lock the door.”

Tessa laughed as well. “Leave it to Scott Moir to leave a door unlocked during a make out session.” She said, giggling. She squeezed his bicep gently.

Scott looked at her then, letting out a soft sigh as he grabbed her hand softly as he looked deep into her eyes. “Do you regret it?”

Tessa looked at him with confusion, laughing a bit. “I don’t regret any of it. I wanted it just as much as you did.”

Scott just looked at her with adoration and a lopsided smile gracing his lips.

Tessa leaned closer to him, tipping on her toes to whisper in his ear. “I hope we can do that again soon.” She whispered seductively.

Jesus Christ she was such a tease.

Scott could only swallow hard as he felt his pants tighten as he watched Tessa sway her hips as she walked away from him towards her mother. She glanced at him with a playful smile.


—————


July, 2006
Canton, Michigan, USA



“Hey T, I think we should head back home” He yelled over the loud music, getting her attention as she danced with a red cup in her hand.

“But I’m having so much fun! Com’on Scott! When was the last time we had this much fun!” She said, sipping her drink while pulling his arm towards her

“c’mon dance with me!”

Scott sighed sharply, pulling against Tessa’s insisting grasp. “Tessa, we should leave it’s getting late.”

“We don’t have practice early tomorrow! I want to stay!”

Scott had an uneasy feeling about this. But he ignored it. “Fine, if you want to stay then stay.” He says, grabbing her face to make sure she’s listening.

“Listen once your done call me or have someone drop you off at home alright?” He said as she nodded, eyes glazed. He let go.

“I need to get home, but I’ll see you tomorrow, yeah?”

———

Scott’s alarm rang at 9 AM. They had to be at practice by 10 AM. He groaned, rubbing his eyes as he pressed the stop button on his phone, he noticed a message from Tessa.

Today, 4:53 AM:

Tessa:
Hey, just wanted to let you know I got home safe. See you at practice.

He let out a sigh of relief as he got out of bed to go get ready for practice.

———

Scott stared at the clock in the rink. 11:04 AM. Tessa was late, an hour late. He sent her a text half an hour ago but she didn’t respond. He was getting worried.

He made his way back to the boards to get his phone from his bag and called Tessa. 5 rings before it went to voicemail.

He sighed, squeezing his eyes as he pinched the bridge of his nose as the call directed him to speak after the tone.

“Hey Tess, where are you? Practice started an hour ago and you’re not here. I just want to make sure that you’re okay. Call me back when you get this message please.” He ended the call with another sigh. Putting it back in his bag as he grabbed some water to drink.

———

He was gliding on the ice when he heard the door open. He checked the time, 11:46AM, he turned around to the sound of footsteps to see Tessa, walking towards the bench with her skates.

“Hey!” He shouted, quickly gliding to the boards, stepping off the ice, heading near her.

“T, you’re late! Almost 2 hours late! I was worried sick! Where the hell where you?”

She wasn’t looking at him as she took off her shoes to put on her skates.

“Hey? Tessa? Are you listening to me? Where the hell where you?” He said, coming closer to her and grabbing her forearm.

She looked at him then, stopped lacing her skates mid way. Scott let go of her arm as he looked at her, she looked sad, her eyes were puffy, the right one almost swollen.

“I’m sorry” Tessa said, her voice cracking. “I just over slept I—I didn’t mean to get home so late.” She said, her eyes were watering. “I’m sorry. I promise it won’t happen again.”

“Tessa.” He said softly, his face looked pained, seeing Tessa like this broke him. “Are you—“

“Look can we just skate?” She said. A pleading look on her face. He could tell she wasn’t okay. “I just want to get as much done as we can.”

Scott didn’t want to force her to talk. “Sure.” He said. Waiting for her to finish lacing up her skates. “Did you stretch?”

“Yeah.” She said, rubbing her hand over her watering eyes.

He sighed. “Alright, I’ll see you out there.”

———

It was the worst practice of their careers. They were out of sync, falling constantly, Marina yelled at them every mistake they made.

They were both irritated and exhausted. They practiced a lift and messed up the entrance multiple times. Marina has enough.

“What the hell is this?” She yelled at the boards. “What is wrong with you two? why you are not cooperating? You look like baby calves who can barely walk not junior champions!” She yelled again. Scott and Tessa glided towards her at the boards.

Scott glanced at Tessa. She looked like she was on the verge of tears. Scott’s face softened, needing to know what was bothering her, why she wasn’t acting like herself. Scott cleared his throat. His hand rubbing the back of his neck. “I think we should take a break.” He said, glancing at Tessa, irritation in his voice, mainly towards Marina.

Marina muttered something in Russian. Before glancing at them again. “15 minutes.” She said. Walking out of the rink.

When she was out of eyeshot Tessa immediately turned to Scott, her voice cracking again. “Scott I’m so sorry—”

Scott stopped her from talking, grabbing her wrist and dragging her off the ice, out of the rink towards the dressing rooms. “We need to talk.” He said, his jaw clenched. Once they were in the dressing room, Scott locked the door behind them. He turned to Tessa, a bit irritated. “What the hell is going on Tess?”

“Nothing.” She said. Not looking at him as she sat on the bench.

“Why were you late.” He said coming closer to her.

“I told you I slept in”

“Why are your eyes puffy”

“Because I got home late last night and barely slept”

“Tess.” He said firmly, raising his voice. He crossed his arms.

“What?” Her voice started to waiver.

He looked at her like she was crazy. “what do you mean what? I’m sorry I’m worried about my partner? You’re not okay! Your not your usual self!” He yelled. She looked hurt. “Tess, did.. did something happen to you last night? At the party?” He said. Lowering himself to meet her at eye level. She still wouldn’t look at him.

“Nothing happened at the party.” She said, her voice cracking, and tears streamed down her cheeks.

That’s when he saw the makeup run off with her tears, bruised skin near her right eye where it was swollen. He wiped her tears, transferring some of the makeup onto the pad of his thumb. “Then why is your eye swollen and bruised?” He said gently. That’s when she looked at him. And began sobbing into her hands.

Scott couldn’t stand seeing her like this. He felt helpless. He sat next to her on the bench and wrapped his arms around her and rubbed her back gently. “T, you can tell me anything.”

“S—something happened.” She said, crying.

Scott tensed, his hand stopped running circles along her lower back. “Do you want to talk about it?”

“I don’t know if I can.”

He was worried now. “Tess... what happened? Is it seriou—?”

“I was raped.” She said, crying harder now into her hands. Full on sobbing. She was trembling against Scott’s stiff hand.

“What!?” He yelled. “What.. who was it!? Are you alright!?”

“It was after you left, I was dancing with kaitlyn and then I felt someone dance against me. I was so drunk, I danced with him until he led me upstairs to one of the bedrooms. I didn’t want to have sex. I just wanted to kiss but he pushed me onto the bed and forced... forced me.” She sobbed. “I tried to push him off, I yelled, I kicked, but he was stronger than me and told me to shut up. I kept yelling, I yelled for help, I yelled at him to stop and to get off of me. He didn’t listen. He hit me. I felt so helpless, Scott. Like I deserved it for not leaving the party with you.”

“You had every right to stay at the party, Tess.” He said, grabbing her hand and squeezing it gently. His jaw clenched and eyes were piercing at her.

He was angry. Of course he was angry.

“I’m sorry” she whispered, wiping her tears.

Scott looked at her, and grabbed her face, forcing her to look at him. “Listen to me.” He said gently yes firmly, his voice cracking a bit “You did nothing wrong. This isn’t your fault. You had every right to stay at that party and you had every right to say no. Do you know who it was?”

Her eyes were watering again. Trying to avoid eye contact.

“Tess.” He said gently.

“Yes, I know who it was.”

Scott tensed. “Who was it?”

“I can’t... I can’t say.” She said

“Why not?”

“It’s too much.”

“Tessa, please tell me.”

“Scott I can’t. It’s already painful enough. If I acknowledge that it was him then it just makes it more painful. More real.” She said. Sobs escaping her lips.

Scott pulled her into a hug. Rubbing small circles on her lower back and kissing the top of her head. “I think we should call it a day.” He said against her head.

“Are you sure?” Tessa said.

“You need some time off. Do you want me to come with you?”

“No I just feel like being alone right now.”

———

After Tessa left Scott was the changing room getting all his stuff put away to leave when he heard the door open and two male voices.

“Did you end up scoring last night?.”

“Oh yeah! She was totally into it.”

The voices sounded like Fedor and Charlie.

“Really? Who was the lucky chick?”

“Tessa Virtue man!” Fedor said giving Charlie a high five.

Scott tensed. Anger boiling through his body. He was seeing red.

“No fucking way! Isn’t she a virgin?”

“Not anymore” he said laughing.

That’s when Scott came up to him and smashed him against the lockers, pushing him to the ground and throwing punches to his face.


—————


August, 2006
Ilderton, Ontario, Canada



The annual Moir barbecue was the highlight of Scott’s summer every year during off season. He’s so thankful that marina allowed them both a few extra days off to visit their families before they get back to training for


—————


September, 2006
Canton, Michigan, U.S.A



“Tessa please.” He whispered, a pleading look on his face.

Anger and annoyance filled Tessa. “I told you scott! I’m not hungry!” She yelled, standing up too fast, she felt lightheaded.

“This is more than just about the weight thing isn’t it?”


—————


June 2007
Canton, Michigan, U.S.A



Tessa noticed Scott has been acting weird during practice. He seemed unfocused and distracted, messing up the steps multiple times and cursing himself when he’s had enough.

“I’m going to get some air.” He huffed. Clearly frustrated with himself. He put on his guards and walked fast out of the rink as Tessa stood behind on the ice. Gliding to the boards towards Marina.

“What is his problem?” Marina said, annoyed at Scott.

Tessa just shrugged. “I don’t know.”

Marina muttered something in Russian before walking away, turning around after a few steps to face Tessa. “Listen if he doesn’t come back in 5 minutes go look for him. I’ll be in my office.” She said as she continued to walk out into the lobby.

Tessa sighed, she felt bad for Scott she wondered if there was something going on with him. Was it Jessica? Was it herself? Did she do something to make him upset? If she did she wondered what it was. Maybe it was this morning? Or something last night? He didn’t answer her text when she asked of he wanted to come over to binge watch something. Maybe he got annoyed of her? She didn’t know.

Tessa tried to forget her snowballing thoughts. Before she got too much. She had a tendency to overthink things, especially if Scott was mad. She put on her skate guards and walked out of the rink to find Scott. She doesn’t find him in the dressing room, the cafeteria, or in the lobby.

She found him outside the rink sitting on a bench, slumped over with his head in his hands. She felt bad for him.

“Hey!” She yelled. She ran over to the bench and sat next to him. “You okay?”

“I’m fine.” He muttered.

Tessa rolled her eyes. Playfully pushing him, feeling the hard, taunt muscles of his bicep against her hand. She tensed a bit. She never felt him like that before, He felt... good... Tessa shook her head slightly, snapping out her thoughts. She took a deep breath and cleared her throat. She turned her body to face him, bringing her leg up and laying it on the bench and placing her hands along it. “C’mon Scott! I know there’s something bothering you!”

Scott sat up straight, crossing his arms on his chest. He avoided her piercing green eyes he knows he’ll get lost in if he looks at her. “I said I’m fine.” He said tightly.

God he’s so stubborn thought Tessa. She rolled her eyes again. “Seriously Scott?”

“What?”

“Quit being so stubborn! I know you’re upset why can’t you just tell me what’s wrong?”

“Because I don’t want to talk about it!”

“Scott—“

“Tessa! Just leave it alright!?” He yelled. Turning to face her.

Tessa was taken aback, he never yelled at her like that. He looked so angry. “Fine. I’m sorry.”

“Fuck.” He said. Head in his hands as he breathed deeply before facing her again. “Tess, I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to yell like that.”

Tessa pursed her lips. “Don’t worry about it.” She said.

“No. Don’t. I shouldn’t have yelled like that. We don’t yell.”

“No, your right.” She said. “But you’re upset, and sometimes when you’re upset you need to yell. So don’t worry about it.”

Scott sighed heavily.

“Look, why don’t we have a movie night tonight? Come over to my place? Take your mind of today?”

“No I’d rather not.”

“Why?”

“I kind of just want to be alone.”

Tessa considered his words, debating wether she should change his mind. Maybe he just needs to be alone. Maybe he’ll open up to her once he’s had some space.

“Why don’t you go home?” said Tessa, placing her hand on Scott’s shoulder and rubbing gently. “I’ll tell marina your not feeling well. Go home and rest.”

“Thanks, T. I’m sorry.”

“Don’t be.” She said. “We all have our off days.”

——

Later than night Scott heard a knock on his apartment door. Scott groaned, as he got off the couch. Who the hell was at his door at this hour? He opened the door to find Tessa on the other side.

“Tess?” He said perplexed “what are you doing here?” He noticed she had two grocery bags in her hands.

“Well, you wouldn’t come over to my place for movie night. So I decided to bring movie night to you.” She said. A smile on her face. “Can I come in?”

Scott hesitated for a moment. Before sighing softly. “Uh, sure.” He said, Opening the door wider for her to enter as she stepped inside. Closing it behind her.

“So.” She started, placing the bags on his table as she looked for something in the bags. She turned to him holding three DVDs in her hand. “Will it be Bloodsport, Moulin Rouge, or How to Lose a Guy in Ten Days?”

Scott laughs, walking closer towards her. “Really Tess?” He said, coming so close their faces were nearly inches apart. “How to lose a guy in ten days?”

Tessa laughs, “C’mon Scott! I know how much you love rom coms!”

“Yeah sure.” Scott said jokingly, laughing a bit. he brought a hand up to his face, covering the smile he had at how adorable Tessa looked. Only Tessa knew how to cheer him up.

“Don’t lie to me!” She giggled. “Besides who doesn’t love a little Kate Hudson and Matthew McConaughey?”

Scott only looked at her. Her smile wide, her eyes were bright and beautiful. He couldn’t stop looking at her. He felt something come over himself, as if he was drawn to Tessa. He moved to grab her hand gently, looking into her eyes.

Tessa only looks deeper into his eyes, taking a slight breath as he came closer. She could feel his breath against her lips. electricity running through their bodies, as if they’re the only two people in the world.

The moment seems to last forever before Scott speaks. “How about moulin rouge?” He said softly.

Tessa takes a breath, snapping herself out of the intense moment they just shared. “Uh, yeah—let me just put the snacks out.” She said, laughing a bit, clearing her throat and moved to busy herself with the grocery bags in front of her. She felt her cheeks redden.

Scott felt his pants tighten, silently cursing himself at the state he was in. “Um, I’ll—I’ll be right back.” He said, trying to sound nonchalant

“Oh, okay.” Said Tessa, still unloading the bags onto his kitchen counter. God she looked so cute. he tuned and made his way to the bathroom. Locking the door behind him and standing in front of the vanity, his hands grasping the sides of the sink as he took a deep breath.

“Pull yourself together Scott.” He told himself. Turning the water on and rubbing water onto his face. “She’s your fucking skating partner. Besides she doesn’t like you that way.” He tried telling himself, he kind of hoped it wouldn’t be true but he would say anything at this point to calm himself down. He thought of different things to try to calm his erection, when he heard a knock on the door.

“Scott?” Tessa said softly. “Are you okay? I have the snacks out when your ready.”

“Uh—y-yeah, just give me a second T!” He said loudly.

There was a pause for a moment before Tessa spoke.

“Uh, alright.” Another moment passed before she spoke again. “Are you sure you’re okay?”

“Y-yeah” he said. “Just go I’ll be there in a minute!”

A minute or two passed before Scott finally came out of the bathroom after calming himself down. Taking a deep breath as he makes his way into the living room to find Tessa lying on the couch eating from a bowl of chips that was laying near her chest.

“Took you long enough.” giggled Tessa. “I was going to start it without you.”

“You wouldn’t dare.” Joked Scott as he moved closer. “Move over T, quit hogging my couch!”

Tessa only laughed as she sat upright and moved a bit so scott could sit on the two seated love seat. She passed him the bowl of chips as she reached for the remote and started the movie. Moving herself closer to place her head on his shoulder as she grabbed chips from the bowl in his lap.

Scott wished they could stay like this forever.

——

Once the movie was done, Tessa was still leaning her head on Scott’s shoulder. She yawned and stretched out her sore muscles from practice earlier that day.

Scott looked at her with adoration in his eyes. Why did she have to do everything in such a cute way?

“Thanks for the movie, T.” He said, placing a playful pat on her thigh. “It made me feel better.”

“Yeah? I’m glad.” She said smiling. She turned her body so she was facing him, bringing her legs up to rest on the couch. “So are you going to tell me what’s bothering you?”

Scott sighed. Squeezing his eyes and pinching the bridge of his nose, he groaned slightly. “Why do you want to know anyways?”

Tessa looked at him as if he was stupid. “Because you’re my partner? And I care about you? A lot! I deserve to know what’s bugging you!”

Scott didn’t know why he didn’t tell Tessa why he was upset. It’s not like it was anything that bad. He sighed and faced her, her sharp green eyes staring right into his.

He took in a sharp breath, taking a moment to just look at Tessa. She is so beautiful he thought. His eyes roaming her face, from her eyes, to her gentle smile to her neck. He tried to calm the beating of his heart in his ears as he felt his arousal grow once more. “Jessica broke up with me last night.”

They were both quiet. Tessa didn’t know what to say. On the one hand she was happy, she never really liked Jessica that much. But she felt bad for Scott, Jessica was his first girlfriend. No wonder he was all upset earlier today.

“I’m so sorry, Scott.” She said, apologetically. Placing her hand on his thigh gently.

Scott only laughed softly, a small chuckle escaping his lips. “What are you sorry for?” He said, a slight smile gracing his lips.

Tessa was confused. “What do you mean? Your girlfriend broke up with you!”

“Yeah, she did. I mean, she did break my heart but I’m kind of glad she’s gone, you know?”

“Why? I thought you loved her?”

“Love is a strong word, T.” He said, moving his arm so it rested on top of the couch, his hand near the nape of her neck. “I love you.” He said, his eyes looking straight into Tessa’s. “I didn’t love Jessica. She was more of a distraction than anything else now that I think about it.”

Scott’s intense gaze was making Tessa feel flushed, as he basically proclaimed that he loved her. She felt warmth in her lower belly, and in her core. She only felt herself become hot all over, her chest tightening as they gazed into each other eyes, not daring to look away. His gaze only became more intense, his jaw set as he placed his hand on her neck, moving closer to her. She wondered if he felt the same way.

Scott closed the gap between them as he moved his hands behind her head and brought her face up to kiss him.

Tessa could only respond, her chest becoming tighter as her feelings of arousal grew stronger, her body becoming hot as she wrapped her arms around his neck and Scott moved to place Tessa on his lap as he kissed her deeper, their lips coaxing each other, moving in sync as they swallowed each other whole.

Scott moved his hands lower on her back, rubbing gently as he kissed Tessa deeper, bringing her bottom lip between his teeth and biting hard.

Tessa moaned loudly, gasping as she brought her hands into his hair and pulled hard, causing Scott to groan, his hard, hot breath against her lips as he pressed them against her once more. He couldn’t get enough of her.

Scott moves to place Tessa on her back along the couch cushions as he moved onto of her, hovering slightly as he continued devouring her mouth, kissing her like it was his last day on earth. He wanted more, he needed more. He felt his boxers tighten against his dick, his chest tightening at what was happening, he shouldn’t be doing this, they shouldn’t be doing this.

Scott froze for a moment, pulling himself a bit from Tessa, their breaths coming hard as they panted from their make out session.

Tessa looked at him confused, he couldn’t meet her eyes as she ran her hands through his hair. “What’s wrong? Why’d you stop?” She said between breaths.

Scott looked at her then, and god she looked so fucking sexy. Her eyes blown wide, bright and full of lust, her hair mused from the friction of the couch underneath her, her lips red and swollen, her cheeks flushed pink. Scott’s chest only tightened more at the sight of her disheveled like this underneath him, causing his dick to become even harder as his breath quickened even more.

Scott removed himself from on top of Tessa, sitting up as he ran his hand through his hair and tried to calm his breathing and his erection.

Scott turns his face towards Tessa as she sits up, bringing her knees to her chest as she hugs her legs. She looks upset.

“Tess, I’m sorry—“

“No, it’s fine.” She said. He could see her eyes watering.

Scott rubbed his eyes and groaned.

Tessa moves off the couch, heading towards the door. “I have to go. I’ll see you tomorrow.”


—————


August 2007
Canton, Michigan, U.S.A



Ever since Scott stopped seeing Jessica he’s been getting hard on’s during practice. He hoped no one noticed, but it happens so often he couldn’t help it.

Scott and Tessa are driving around after finishing practice earlier that day. He stops by a convince store to grab some snacks. They stop driving near a cliff side view, sharing the snack he bought between them.

“Can I ask you something?” Tessa says.

“Anything.” He said, taking a sip of the orange juice he bought for them to share.

“Why were you hard during practice?”

Scott chokes, taken aback as he starts coughing hard.

Tessa moved a bit closer as she rubbed his back and laughs gently, handing him the water bottle that was in the cup holder. “You alright Scott?”

Scott cleated his throat as he takes the bottle from her hand.

Scott coughed again and cleared his throat as he grabbed the water bottle from her hand. “Y-yeah yeah.” He said, clearing his throat once more before taking a couple of sips of water.

—

Tessa slides down the bench of his truck, placing a hand on his thigh and giving it a light squeeze.

This causes Scott to flinch, his breath starting to hitch as he looked at her. The look on her face screamed want and desire.

“Tess— y—you don’t have to.” Scott said, struggling to get out the words as his heart was thundering in his ears and he felt his blood boil as his arousal grew and seeped into his bones.

Tessa only looks deeper into his eyes, moving her hand to palm him through his jeans, causing Scott to gasp slightly and roll his eyes back as Tessa lightly cupped and squeezed gently at his length through the rough fabric.

“Fuck!” He sharply mutters, his breath coming hard.

Tessa only smiled, leaning into him. “I want to.” She says softly, yet firm.

Jesus Christ she’s going to kill him.

Tessa moved closer. Their thighs pressed against one another as she moved to work the button of his pants open, then worked to open the zipper.

Scott’s felt himself become warm with lust, the thundering of his heart only growing stronger in his ears.

He felt his dick twitch as Tessa slides her hand under his boxers. She places her hand around his hardened dick, adding pressure as she tightened her hand at the base and pumped him up and down his length slowly, stoping at the tip to swirl along his slit, feeling his precum along the pad of her thumb.

Scott’s breath was coming hard, as he moaned softly, the heat and arousal rushing to his head making him lightheaded, his body vibrating with pleasure and want.

Tessa leaned her head in closer towards him. Placing a soft kiss along his jaw, working her way down his neck.

He could feel her breathing hard as well, hot against his neck as she starts biting softly along his pulse. He places his hand on the base of her neck, keeping her in place as she kissed and bit his neck as her hand continued to pump along his dick, changing the pressure slightly so he doesn’t loose it on just her hand.

Scott turns his head to face her, their noses grazing slightly, she could feel his hot breath against her lips.

He leans a bit to capture her lips onto his and kiss her roughly as she slows down her hand on his dick, taking him in as he kisses her with force. Their mouths exploring each other, swallowing their moans.

How Scott doesn’t cum in that moment he doesn’t know.

He brings both hands to her head, locking her in place as he kissed her deeper, all teeth and tongue and want as Tessa removes her hand from his dick.

Tessa breaks the kiss. Both panting, lips red and swollen. Her eyes were wicked, a dark shade of green filled with lust.

She licked her lips before moving away from him just a bit, bringing her knees up on the bench as she leans her head towards his hardened upright dick.

She places her hand at the base and licks a long stripe up the side starting from where her hand was placed all the way to the tip. Adding pressure as she did it two more times.

Scott moaned slightly, his eyes squeezed tight, his jaw set from clenching.

“Fuck you’re so beautiful.” He said between moans.

Tessa licks one more long, slow stripe, removing her hand so she starts at the base of his dick.

When she reaches the top, she enveloped his dick into her mouth, sucking the tip gently before slowly moving her head down, bringing his dick father into her mouth as she added pressure around her lips. Her hand meeting in time with her mouth.

Scott moaned loudly as Tessa bobbed her head deeper, her hand meeting her faster.

“Holy fuck Tessa!” Scott said between clenched teeth as he gasped.

He placed a hand in her hair, near the nape of her neck as she removed her hand from his dick to move her head deeper along his length.

She could feel his dick against her throat as she bobbed, hollowing her cheeks she moved up and down.

Scott screamed in pleasure, pulling slightly at Tessa’s hair, causing her to groan slightly as his hips flinched, thrusting his dick into her mouth as he moved his head back, placing his forearm against his eyes as he continued to moan.

He could feel his orgasam build, the waves of pleasure coming in slowly.

“T-Tess, I’m going to cum.” He said between gasps.

Tessa only continued,


—————


November 2007
Canton, Michigan, U.S.A



It was a long and brutal practice day for Tessa and Scott. They were only starting to figure out what changes they needed to make for Canadian Championships in January. It was around 9:30pm. Everyone had left by now. Scott and Tessa stayed after hours with Marina to work out some of the kinks in their lifts.

Marina has left ten minutes ago. Scott found Tessa in one of the dressing rooms. unlacing her skates. He walked up to her. “Hey T-bone!” He said playfully, a lopsided smile across his lips.

“Hey.” Said Tessa, as she took her skates off and put her runners on. “Great practice today!”

“Yeah, January is just around the corner! So we still have some time to smooth things out.” He says, a mischievous look in his eye.

Tessa laughs a bit. Feeling herself become flushed from his lining eyes. She clears her throat. “What are you thinking?”

Scott walks two steps before grabbing Tessa’s face and placing a soft kiss on her lips.

“I want this.” He says, kissing her again as Tessa responds, putting her arms around her neck as Scott wraps his arms around her waist and lifts her from her seated position. He tightens his grip as he deepens the kiss, coaxing his tongue against her lips.

She opens her mouth wider, a moan escaping her lips as he explores her mouth with his tongue, running her hands through his hair as he places his hand on her breast. He could feel her hardened nipple through the thin fabric of her tank top.

Scott moves his mouth, giving her soft wet kisses along the corner of her mouth, moving down to her jaw, squeezing his hand along the curve of her waist as other hand played with her nipple through the fabric.

Tessa moaned, bucking her hips against his, and pulled his hair slightly.

Scott groaned against her neck, Tessa felt the vibration against her body, making her core clench.

Scott places his lips against her ear, breathing hard.

“I want to touch you.” He whispered, squeezing her breast.

Tessa pants, nodding quickly as Scott moves his lips, peppering soft kisses down her neck, across across shoulder, moving the strap of her tank top down her shoulder as he makes his way to her collarbone, grazing his teeth against her as he bites gently.

Tessa moaned. Grabbing Scott’s bicep and digging her nails into the soft fabric of his sleeve, feeling hard muscles underneath.

Scott moves the other strap of her tank top off her shoulder, pushing the top down her body slowly, revealing her small perky breasts, and her stomach. Scott moves to kiss down her sternum, sliding to the left breast and taking a plump pink nipple into his mouth. Gliding his tounge against it, adding pressure by sucking slightly. He moves his hands against her waist squeezing gently as her hips.

Tessa moans loudly, her head moving back as she places her hands in his hair. Gasping slightly as the feeling of pleasure going straight to her core. Scott moves to the other breast, sucking her nipple into her mouth and biting against it. Causing Tessa to jump and moan loudly “shit Scott!” She yelled.

He guides Tessa to sit down on one of the benches, leaning down and pressing a delicate kiss to her collarbone.

Scott lets go and looks up at her face. He feels his boxers tighten, the look on her face screamed lust. He makes his way down her sternum, placing soft kisses along the way.

He moved onto his knees. Looking up at Tessa as he stops at her ribcage. He placed his hand along the waistband of her leggings, pulling at them slightly. He looks up at her to make sure she’s okay with this. Her face says it all.

“I want you to touch me.” She says, her voice cracking a bit from her dry throat. It sounds unbelievably sexy.

He hooks his fingers in her waist band and pulls her leggings down slowly, taking her all in one bit at a time. He pulls them all the way down, he places his hands along her legs, grazing them slightly, admiring her body, his eyes on her thin lacy thong. He almost cums at the sight. “Jesus Christ Tessa.” He said.

—

She wants to remember the feeling of Scott’s tongue sinking into her, her cunt hot and and wet as it squeezed around his tongue, Scott thrusting as he sucked with his mouth, earning him a loud gasping moan from Tessa as he rubs hard circles along her clit. He stopped himself for a moment, his hot, hard, breath against her throbbing cunt. He adjusts himself, his hands on her hips tightening enough to leave a bruise as he dragged his hard, rough, tongue along the base of her cunt all way to her clit, bringing it into his mouth and sucking hard and biting gently.

“Oh god! Scott!”Tessa moaned loudly, her voice reaching a high pitch as she rolled her hips in time with his mouth. God she was so close, her ragged breath coming hard as she pulled on Scott’s hair, causing him to groan along her, making Tessa even wetter.


—————


World Championships
March, 2008
Gothenburg, Sweden



Tessa and Scott stood on the podium at 2nd place. They were happy with their performance and their results. They worked so hard for this moment, maybe too hard.

As Tessa stood next to Scott on the podium, his hand on her waist as they looked at the camera to get their photos taken.

Tessa’s legs were hurting enormously. She felt an uncomfortable cramping, burning sensation in her shins and calves that made her want to cut her legs off.

She tried not to show her discomfort as they walked off the podium and skated to the boards.

Scott grazed his hand lightly across her back as he waited for her to put her guards on. Once she put them on and moved out of the way he noticed her wince, lifting one of her feet.

He looked at her with concern, wondering if she’s alright.

“Hey Tess?” He said softly, trying to get her attention but she’s already making her way to the dressing room. Leaving him alone at the boards with Marina.

———

Scott waited for her outside the dressing room after getting changed himself. He wondered if she was okay, it’s been a while since she went in and she should’ve been done by now.

He contemplated going in to see if she’s okay, when Tessa opened the door and walked out, dressed in active gear, hair down, and her head facing the ground.

“Hey, T” he said softly, making his way towards her, calm yet protective, placing a hand on her lower back and rubbing gently. “You alright?”

Tessa doesn’t look at him, but Scott noticed she looked pale, he became worried, moving his hand to hold her forearm as he tried to get her attention.

“Tess? Tessa? What’s wrong are you okay? Do you need to sit down?” He says, his voice cracking a bit. He was scared. He wanted to make sure she was okay.

He sees the look on her face change, she suddenly becomes dizzy, holding a hand out to place on the wall next to her as the pain becomes unbearable.

Scott has his hands on her waist before she could drop, balancing her.

“Woah! Tessa! Hey, are you alright? Do you want to go the nurse?”

Tessa shakes her head, tears welling in her eyes, unable to get out any words to describe the amount of pain she was feeling.

Tessa felt ill, the pain making it unbearable to stand let alone walk, it overcame her, devoured her body. She tried to run to the nearest bathroom she could find, which lucky for her was right next to the dressing room.

Tessa barely ran into the stall, immediately on her knees as she threw up in the toilet. The pain making her sight hazy and unfocused as the pain took over her body, coming in waves as her body’s only response was by throwing up.

She heard steps come into the stall, and felt a hand caressing her neck as they held her hair away from her face, and a light, warm graze on her back.

“Shh, Tess.” She heard Scott whisper softly into her ear, comforting her. “I’m here. It’s okay.”

She threw up again. Scott’s hand on her back rubbing light circles as she continued to empty her stomach.

She cried though it, tears streamed down her face as her body betrayed her. Sobbed in between each time she threw up and heaved when nothing would come out. Her body shaking uncontrollably under Scott’s hand on her back, his hand stiff yet soft, the anchor she needed to get through this.

She threw up for a total of 5 times in the span of 10 minutes. When she felt like her body was done, like it could no longer fight, she leaned back, sobbing as she cleaned her face with toilet paper, flushing the contents down.

She immediately finds Scott’s arms around her, bringing her into a hug as she leans her head against her his collar bone, tears streaming onto his shirt as sobs escaped her lips, her body shaking and humming with pain.

“It’s okay. It’s okay. You’ll be okay, I promise.” Scott whispered multiple times as he kissed the top of her head, rubbing his hand along her bicep and squeezing his arms around her tightly to try to coax the shaking coming from her body.

——

They managed to make it to the hotel later that night.

Tessa held onto Scott, an arm wrapped around his waist as he helped her into her room.

He walked her over to the bed after placing their luggage next to the door, guiding her to sit gently as she rubbed at her calves.

Scott felt so guilty, she looked like a mess. Her hair frazzled, her face was puffy, her eyes were swollen and red, she was still shaking. He moved to sit next to her and grab her hand, squeezing gently letting her know that he was here for her.

“What’s going on Tess?” He says softly.

Tessa shook her head, she didn’t look at him, her eyes trained on the hotel carpet as she tried not to let sobs escape her lips or let tears stream down her face. She knew if she started talking she would end up crying, again.

Scott’s other hand comes up to the nape of her neck and rubs gently at the sore muscles. Tessa closes her eyes and whimpers softly, taking a shaky deep breath as she squeezes his hand back. A small gesture thanking him for being here.

Scott placed a small kiss along her temple, leaning his forehead against the side of her head, taking in her scent.

“T, please tell me what’s wrong.” Scott said, his voice waivering, like he was about to cry. “I hate seeing you like this, I just want to make sure you’re okay.” He took in a shaker breath. “I’m really worried about you.”

It was then that Tessa let the tears she tried holding back flow, she turned to Scott, his eyes were watering. It made her feel so guilty, she hated seeing Scott cry.


—————


August, 2008
Canton, Michigan, USA



As he gets out of his car he receives a message from Tessa.

Today, 5:53 AM:

Tessa:
Hey i’m going to run late today can you let marina know? Thanks

He sighs. Worried what Marina would say about this. She hates it when either of them are late. He types out a reply.

Today, 6:02 AM:

Scott:
Hey T. Sure no problem. See you later.

The cool air and the smell of rubber greets him as he opens the door to the lobby of the rink. Heading to the dressing room to put his stuff away, he sees marina walk out of the office. “Morning, Marina.”

“Good morning Scott. Where’s Tessa?” She says, tossing her arms over her chest. An annoyed look on her face.

“She told me she’s going to be a bit late today.”

“Again!? No this is unacceptable!” She walks back into her office and dials Tessa on the phone. No answer. She dials three more times. Still more answer.

Scott hears her yell, swearing in Russian as she slams the phone off. She was angry. Marina made her way out of her office heading towards Scott who was sitting on the bench. “You! Go to her apartment now! See what’s wrong!”

“What why? Did she not pick up?”

“No now go!”

“Wait let me try calling her.” He dials twice and she doesn’t answer. “Fuck” he mutters

“We already wasted enough time go to her apartment now otherwise your practice is cancelled!” She yelled

“Jesus calm down marina! I’ll go!”

“Go, and hurry up!”

———

Scott makes his way to her apartment. He pressed the elevator button to go up. They live in the same building, their apartments just two doors away from each other on the 4th floor. When Scott walks into the elevator, he starts getting anxious. He’s nervous if there’s something wrong with Tessa, if he has to use his spare key that she gave him when they first moved in for emergencies.

—

“what are my options?” Tessa said, her hands turning white from tightening against the edges of the counter she was sitting on.

“Well you could do the surgery, which may or may not work, especially in your condition.” She took a pause. Adjusting her glasses before speaking. “Or, and I know this option is hard, but, you could retire.”

Tessa felt herself freeze, all the blood rushing from her head, her breath quickening as her chest tightened and let out a sob as she placed her head in her hands and cried.

—

“What did the doctor say?”

Tessa didn’t say anything. She didn’t even glance at him.

Scott moved closer, their faces almost millimeters apart. “Tess?” He said softly, she could feel his breath against her cold cheek.

She tried to compose herself, she told herself she wouldn’t cry.

She didn’t know what to do, she was faced with a decision that could either not work or end her career. She didn’t want to do that to Scott.

Tessa turned to face him. Their eyes locked immediately.

“I—“ she started, before she felt the tears prick her eyes she felt her body shake. Putting her head down to face the ground, she felt her voice starting to waiver as she let out a small sob, as tears streamed down her cheeks.

She felt Scott’s arms envelop her as her head rested against his chest, she sobbed again as he kissed the top of her head, squeezing his arms to press her closer into his warmth.

“It’s okay Tess.” He whispered into her hair as she shook against him. “Whatever it is, we can get through it.” She could his voice wavering as well, like he was trying not to cry. “We got this kiddo.” He said, she could feel his body shake against hers, as she continued to cry.

Tessa pulled away from him a bit, his arms still around her. She could see the tears that pricked his eyes, threatening to fall.

She dropped her head, glancing at the ground as she took a deep breath, trying to calm her racing heart and shaky breath. “They—they said it was either surgery. Or...” She paused. Taking another breath as she squeezed her eyes shut. Not wanting to say the next few words. “Or.. I’d have to retire.”


—————


October, 2008
London, Ontario, Canada



Tessa couldn’t sleep. Turning in bed over and over. The medicine she took to calm her nerves before the surgery in the morning had left her feeling exhausted.

She heard something. When she sat up, she noticed it was coming from the window.

She slowly got up, wincing slightly from the pain in her legs as she moved towards the window. She pulled the curtains back to see Scott throwing rocks at her window. She quickly opened it.

“Scott?” She half yelled. “What the hell are you doing here?”

“I had to come see you” he said. “It’s your big day tomorrow.” He said with a soft smile.

—

“I don’t want things to change between us.”

Scott sighed. “They won’t.” He said, cupping her cheek gently as she leaned into his touch, closing her eyes.

“What do you want Tess?”

—

The soft moonlight cascaded through her sheer white curtains. Casting a cool glow against her pale skin, making her look heavenly.

Scott licked his lips as his eyes trailed from her small plump breasts, to her toned stomach, and down to her very thin white lacy thong. The thin transparent lace trim hugged her hips gently as the rest of the more opaque lace fabric covered her entrance barely.

Seeing her like this caused Scott to groan slightly as he leaned down towards Tessa, and placed delicate kisses along her neck.

Tessa moaned, her body vibrating against his lips as she wrapped her arms around his neck and ran her hands through his soft unruly hair.


—————


Vancouver Olympics
February, 2010
Vancouver, British Columbia, Canada



They’re both shaking as they find themselves in Tessa’s hotel room. Wide smiles across both their faces.

Scott looks at her with adoration, a lopsided smile beaming from his face.

“Did we really just do that?” He whispers, he grabs her hands gently. Squeezing them to try to stop them from shaking with adrenaline.

Tessa giggles, her eyes squinting from his big her smile is. “I think so.” She says, placing her forhead against his. “Thank you Scott.”

—

Scott moved towards her on the bed, moving on top of her as he brought her legs to wrap against his lower back. Pressing his dick along her centre.

Scott leaned his face closer, their lips ghosting, barely millimeters apart. He could feel her hot breath against his lips.

“I love you so much.” Scott said, his voice raspy and low.

Tessa let out a small breathy laugh. Her smile coming up to her ears. He could see her glassy eyes begin to water.

“I love you too, Scott.” She said running her hand through his hair.

Scott lowered his hand down to where they’re bodies met. He grabbed his dick and placed it along her entrance, teasing her as he moved it along her slit, the tip grazing her slightly as it moved along her.

Tessa’s breath hitched, moaning slightly as she wrapped her arms around his neck.

They locked eyes as he slid into her gently, her wet, hot, walls wrapped effortlessly around his dick as he slid inch by inch. Wanting to savour the moment.

Tessa gasped and cried out when he slid himself all the way, her eyes rolling back as her breath became heavy.

Scott’s hand grazed her neck gently as he moaned, trying to keep himself together. He wants to remember this moment, after the biggest win of their lives at their first Olympics. He felt her walls contract around his throbbing dick.

He began to move, pumping gently in and out of her sopping wet cunt as they began to move as one. He leaned his head to press his face where her neck and shoulder meet.

Tessa moaned as gasped loudly as Scott began to move faster, harder.

“Fuck Scott!” She managed to say in between gasps. She was gripping his hair tightly.


—————


October, 2012
Toronto, Ontario, Canada



Tessa stormed out of the lobby, heading to the hotel. Scott not far behind her.

———

Tessa didn’t see Scott go after her. Barely missing her as he missed her cab. Tessa felt weight against her chest as she slammed the hotel door closed. She felt so stupid. She ran a hand through her hair as she tried not to cry. She didn’t want to cry. She heard a knock at the door.

“Tess?” Said Scott behind the door. He sounded winded.

He knocked again, louder. “Tess, please open the door!” He yelled as he slammed his fist on the door.

Tessa hesitated for a second, debating wether she should let him in. Scott was part of the reason she was feeling the way she was, but he didn’t know that. He doesn’t know she still has feelings for him.

Tessa took a shakey breath as she walked to over to open the door to see Scott standing on the other side. He looked angry and worried at the same time. His breath coming hard as he looked at her.

“Can I come in?” He said, his expression has softened since she opened the door.

Tessa nods as she opened the door wider and let him through.

“Are you alright Tess?” He said gently, a hand coming up to place on her arm.

Tessa avoided his gaze, feeling warmth where his hand laid on her arm. His thumb softly stroking her bicep. Her voice cracked a bit as she spoke. “I don’t want to talk about it.”

“T, you can talk to me.”

She didn’t answer him.

Scott noticed she looked like she was going to cry any second. He noticed how tense she felt under his grasp, her eyes not meeting his. He knew there was something wrong. He took a few steps back to give her some space.

“Tessa, are you okay?” Scott said lightly, concern written across his face.

Tessa felt tears well up in her eyes. She tried to blink them away but they made their way down her cheeks.

She felt so stupid. First her parents getting divorced, then her legs burning and aching again and their practices being terrible the last couple of days and then Scott dating Cassandra. It was all too much.

Tessa let out a soft sob, her hand coming up to cover her mouth as she felt her body begin to shake. Her chest felt tight as her breath became short. She was overwhelmed. Overwhelmed with guilt, pressure, and pain. She felt worthless. She shook her head, closing her eyes as she tried to take a deep breath, tears streamed down her face as she let out another sob.

She opened her eyes to see Scott. His eyes were filled with concern, mouth slightly gaped as he tried to find the right words to say in this moment when she felt so vulnerable.

She took a shaky breath. Taking the two steps she needed to grab Scott by the face and kiss him hard.

Their mouths immediately respond to one another, moving in sync as Tessa runs her hand through his hair and Scott placed his hands on her hips, pushing them closer together.

In that moment Tessa didn’t care that Scott had a girlfriend. She didn’t care that she was doing something bad. She just wanted to feel scott against her again.

Scott broke the kiss and opened his eyes to look at her. Her eyes were red and watery. He felt her body shake against his grasp. He knew what she wanted.

“Tess we shouldn’t do this.” He said. Placing his hands along her face and looking deep into her eyes.

“Scott,” she whispered softly, her voice waivering. “Please—just—please. I need you.” Her eyes were watering as she pressed her forehead against his, grabbing his hair, as if she needed something to lean against. “Please Scott.”

Scott felt sorry for her. He knew she was going through a lot with her parents divorcing. He wanted to comfort her, make her happy, kiss her even. He felt a sudden urge to just take her all in.

Scott pushed Tessa against the wall and attacked her mouth with a hard, bruising kiss, placing his hands on either side of her head to keep her in place as he bit her bottom lip and kissed her again. Tessa moaned loudly, responding by clawing her nails into his back.

Scott moves his lips, placing wet kisses, along her jaw, and made his way down her neck, biting gently along her pulse.

Tessa moaned again, her moans ringing in Scott’s ears as he grabbed the hem of her shirt and pulled it up, snaking his hand underneath to press into her stomach and graze her waist as he continued to work her neck, biting, sucking, kissing.

He steps back fully to remove Tessa’s shirt, revealing a light pink bra underneath cupping her perfectly small swollen breasts.

Tessa’s breath felt heavy as she grabbed his hand and placed it on her left breast, he was slightly taken aback before Tessa moved closer, pressing a hungry kiss to his mouth.

Scott palmed her breast as Tessa moaned softly as he coaxed his tongue he against her lips, their body’s vibrating with need.

Tessa kissed him and opened her mouth, their lips swallowing each other as their tongues explored each other as Scott moved to unlatch her bra and remove it.

—

Her body spasmed as her orgasam took over her. Feeling waves of pleasure overcome her as she moaned loudly, gasping for air as she hanged on to Scott.

Scott continued to pump into her, thrusting harder and faster as he caught his own orgasam seconds after hers. As he came down from his orgasam, still thrusting inside of her, Tessa started crying, her hands coming up to her face as she turned on her side moving away from Scott. Her cries turn into full on sobbing.

Scott freezes, grunting as he pulls out of her, moving to her side and pulling her into his grasp, he wrapped his arms around her naked body and whispered into her ear.

“It’s okay Tess, I’m here.” He said gently. “I’m here, kiddo.” He placed a soft kiss on her temple as he pulled his arms tighter against her. Pulling her closer, her head leaned on his chest as he felt her tears hit his bare skin. He only whispered sweetly to her as he rubbed gentle circles on her arm and placed a kiss onto the top of her head as she continued to sob into his arms. He felt guilty.

Tessa continued to cry for a while longer. Scott just held her, being there for her in her moment of need. He knew he had to be there for her. She calmed down after a bit, feeling exhausted.

Scott was still holding her, pressing kisses into her hair as he whispered to her softly. “Are you okay Tess?”

Tessa removed herself from his grasp. Rubbing her red swollen eyes as she turned to face him.

She looked so tired, and unhappy. The look on Scott’s face told tessa everything she needed to know. That he was here for her, and that he wasn’t leaving anytime soon.

When she finally spoke, her voice was cracked, her throat dry from crying so much.

“No.” her eyes started watering again. “No, I’m not okay.”

Scott held her hand, and looked into her eyes, making sure Tessa knew he was here to support her.

“T, it’s okay.” He said giving her a soft smile. “You can tell me anything, remember?”

She did remember. Back in July of 2006 when she was raped.

Tessa nodded, squeezing his hand as she wiped tears from her eyes. “Yeah, I remember.” She said.

“So what’s bothering you kiddo?” He said, placing a hand on her chin and tilting it upward so he could lock his eyes with hers. Giving her the comfort she needs with just a look in his eyes.

When she looked at Scott, she felt at peace, she felt at home.

Scott gave her hand a comforting squeeze as she took a deep breath.

“I know I’ve been off these past few months. And I’m sorry if that’s hindered our training and practice. I know I haven’t been the best partner.”

“No, never. Don’t say that. You’re going through a lot right now.”

Tessa’s eyes softened. She knew Scott hated it when she criticized herself. He never had anything bad to say about her and hated it when she thought that way of herself.

Tessa looked away from his intense gaze. “It’s—it’s just been a lot with my parents getting divorced and with training, the pain in my legs came back and it’s been really stressful—”

“Wait what!?”

Tessa froze. She didn’t tell him about the pain being back. And she want going to tell him about her still evident feelings for him.

“Why didn’t you tell me the pain was back?”

Tessa didn’t know what to say. Her mouth gaped as she tried to find the right words. Running a hand though her knotted hair, she took a deep breath.

“I didn’t want to disappoint you more than I did.”

Scott was about to speak before Tessa interrupted.

“—and I know Scott!— I know!— I should’ve just told you and I didn’t!” She yelled. “So don’t tell me that that you’re not disappointed or mad at me. Don’t try to hide it. I’m sick of you thinking that I’m this perfect person who shouldn’t worry about disappointing my partner or that I shouldn’t worry about how I look or what people think of me!”

“Well I’m not sorry I think very highly of my partner.” He said a matter-of-factly. “Tess, am I upset that you didn’t tell me about the pain coming back? Yes very upset! Why? Because I saw that you were in pain, during practice, and during skate Canada. And it hurt me more than anything to know that you couldn’t talk to me about it.” He said. “I mean Tess, you’re the most amazing person I know.”

Tessa scoffed.

Scott squeezed her hands, getting her attention as he looked deep into her eyes. His intense gaze burning into her sharp green eyes.

“I’m serious, T. Don’t try to minimize yourself or what you’ve accomplished. You’re the most beautiful, amazing skating partner a guy could ever have.”

Tessa felt tears prick her eyes at his words. If only he knew what she was really feeling towards him. What his words were doing to her.

“I’m sorry Scott.” She said, tears streamed down her face.

Scott pulled her into a hug. “Shh, it’s okay kiddo.” He said softly. Placing a kiss on top her head. “Why don’t we get some sleep.”


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February, 2013
London, Ontario, Canada



“Goddamit Tessa!” Scott yelled, he was fuming. “Quit playing mind games with me. I’m fucking sick of it!” He said, storming up to her, now barely an inch away from her face. “Do you want to be with me or not?”

Tessa started tearing up. She was angry too. “Scott it’s just easier this way—“

Scott hits the wall next to head, causing her to jump. “what the hell do you mean easier!? What about this is easy!?”

“Scott! Please calm down!” Tessa yelled, tears steaming down her face.


—————


Sochi Olympics, February, 2014 - Sochi, Russia



Tessa walked around the grand room that was the entertainment area, after grabbing a drink at the bar. She looked around, watching the other olympians from different countries enjoying themselves after what was a whirlwind of 2 weeks of wins and losses. Including herself.

Tessa didn’t want to think of the silver she had won a couple of days ago. She was disappointed Sighing, she gazed across the sea of dancers near the DJ station.

She felt her heart drop when her eyes landed on Scott, who was leaning on a wall, making out with some girl. Her heart started racing, and she started to shake. She didn’t know why she was feeling this way, but she needed to get out. Now.

Tessa immediately rounded the length from the bar area to the main entrance of the entertainment area. Her vision blurred, tears lining her eyes as she made her way to the bus stop. Unable to keep her breathing steady, or her hands from shaking uncontrollably. She needed to sit down.

Once she got to house Canada, and made her way up to her room. She closed the door behind her and fell to the floor sobbing. She didn’t know why she was this upset. Nothing was going on with her and Scott. Yet when she saw him with that girl all she could do was panic. She cried for a good two hours. She made her way to her bed and cried herself to sleep. For the silver she received and for Scott.

———

She woke up feeling exhausted. Her eyelids felt heavy and swollen, her throat felt dry and scratchy. She glanced at the clock 9:16 am. “Shit!” She yelled, jumping out of the bed. She was late for team breakfast before the interviews they had that morning.

She ran to the bathroom to brush her teeth, glancing herself in the mirror. She looked like a mess, her hair frizzy and her face all puffy and swollen from the crying she did, wearing the same outfit she wore last night. She quickly splashed her face with water and pulled her hair up in a messy bun.

All she could think of as she grabbed her bag, and headed to the elevator, was how much she didn’t want to see Scott.

———

Tessa noticed them immediately as she entered the small hall lined with buffet tables and a crowd full of olympians. Scott was near the far side of the buffet table, a plate of food in one hand and holding onto a girls hand with the other.

Tessa felt that panic begin to build again. She clenched her fists, pinching her palms, trying to steady her breathing as she made he way to grab her own plate of food. Desperately avoiding Scott’s gaze.

Once she was at the halfway point, she noticed Scott walk up to her. “Hey! T-bone!”

She felt a stab to her heart, seeing Scott alongside that girl. She faked a smile. “Hey Scott”

“Where were you last night? I was saving you a dance!” He said, laughing.

She laughed along with him. He looked so happy, his eyes crinkling in the corners from how big his smile was. It hurt her knowing she wasn’t the reason for his happiness.

“Oh I got really tired. Called it an early night.” She said, her voice cracking a bit from her scratchy throat.

“That’s too bad, eh? I was looking for you.” He said, trying to meet her eyes.

She cleared her throat, avoiding his intent gaze. “So who’s this?” She asked, gesturing to the girl holding Scott’s hand.

“Oh,” he said, as if he snapped out of something, forgetting he was holding the girls hand in the first place.

“This is Kaitlyn. She’s a curler.” He said, letting go of her hand to wrap it around her shoulder.

Tessa couldn’t take seeing Scott like this, it was never like this with Cassandra or Jessica. She tried to keep her voice even, and the thundering of her heart at bay. “Nice to meet you Kaitlyn. I’m Tessa.” She said, not really smiling as she shook Kaitlyn’s hand.

Scott removed his arm from her shoulder to hold her hand again. Kaitlyn gave a quick glance at Scott before turning to Tessa. “Oh I know who you are, Scott’s told me so much about you!” She said, smiling.

Tessa’s eyebrows shot up. Did Scott talk about her all night?

“You guys were amazing in the free dance! It’s too bad you won silver.”

Like Tessa needed the reminder. She tried not to roll her eyes. “Thanks. We were proud of the skates we performed.” She said. An edge to her voice.

“Well I guess I’ll see you later? For the interview?” Scott said

“Yeah.” Said Tessa. Scott walked away with Kaitlyn, heading to sit with Patrick at one of the tables.


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March 2014
Toronto, Ontario, Canada



Tessa avoided Scott’s gaze the entire interview. Scott noticed she seemed on edge, as if something was bothering her. Her answers were short, tight, as if she wanted to get this over with as soon as possible.

———

Scott felt Tessa’s light grasp of his hand. Encouraging him to look up at her. When he looked up, it was all written across her face. Her eyes bright, hazy, and filled with lust. Like she was drawing him in. Scott swallowed hard, he’s had too much to drink. They’ve both have.

Tessa leaned forward, close to his face, close enough to smell the booze coming off his shaking breath. Their foreheads barely touching.

“Why don’t we get out of here?” She whispered. Her eyes piercing into his. Once again, drawing him in.

———

Scott was barely able to wake up, the light from the drawn curtains pierced his eyes as his head pounded against his skull. He shut his eyes and groaned as he pinched the bridge of his nose. Taking a deep breath as he opened his eyes to adjust to the light of the late morning. He doesn’t remember what happened last night, only being here with Tessa. He realized that he’s naked, snapping up when the realization came to him. A million thoughts ran through his head as he turns his body to find the blanket tuned down, when he feels the empty sheets against his hand the cotton is cold. He moved his head towards the pillow to smell it, it smells like Tessa.

“Fuck!” He yelled, putting his head in his hands and taking a deep breath. Trying to calm his thundering heart. He starts to feel dizzy. He gets out of bed, searching for his boxers that were left on the floor next to the doorway. Once he’s barely dressed, he looks around the hotel room. “Tess?” He yells, seeing if she’s still in the room. All he hears is the the busy streets outside. “Shit!” He yells, he feels himself start to panic, his heart is thundering in his ears, he feels hot and foggy, unable to focus as he looks in the bathroom to see if Tessa is there. He finds it empty. His breath starts to shorten as he gets out and scans the room quickly to find his suit jacket flung over the chair in the corner of the room.

He goes towards it to grab his phone out of his suit jacket. Frantically unlocking it and calling Tessa. The rings feel like forever, he silently prays she’ll pick up as he starts to fidget. It gets to 5 rings before the call instructs him to leave a message after the tone. “Fuck!” He yells again, calling her again. She doesn’t pick up. He tries three more times. Still not answer. He gets more frantic the more calls he makes. He decided to leave a message.

“Tessa, where the he’l are you?? Please call me back I’m worried sick about you!” He hangs up with shaking hands as he tried to calm his breathing and clear his mind. Where the hell could she have gone? He thought. He knew she didn’t have any commitments today, after their dinner two nights ago. He sends her a quick text to call him as soon as possible before getting ready to head to the airport. He’s heading home for a few days before he and Tessa head to Japan for start on ice.

He leaves his hotel frantically and heads to the airport still shaken about Tessa’s absence this morning and the unsettling nerves that came with her missed calls. He tried calling her 3 more times before he has to board. Still no answer.


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April, 2014
London, Ontario, Canada



“Scott..” she started, before her feelings bubbled to the surface, tears streamed down her face as she started sobbing.

“Hey, hey..” Scott whispered. Bringing her into a hug. “It’s okay. It’s okay Tess.”

“You always say that.” She whimpers. Tightening her hands against his back as she cried in his chest.

“It’s your choice, I’ll support you no matter what you do.”

—

Scott brought her back home to his house, Tessa didn’t feel like going home or being alone.

Scott went to his bedroom to grab a shirt and sweatpants for her to change in. Trying to make sure she’s as comfortable as she can be.

“Here.” Scott said, placing his hand gently on her arm as he handed her his clothes. She was shaking. “Hey, Tess, are you okay?” He said, his eyes filled with concern. Tessa looked pale.

“I’m—I’m fine. I’m just going to go change.”

Scott sighed softly, his lips pursed as he rubbed her arm gently. “You can change in my room. I’ll get you some water okay?”

Tessa didn’t say anything, she just nodded slightly before making her way into his room and closing the door behind her.

Scott sighed deeply, closing his eyes as he tried to keep his composure, feeling tears prick his eyes. This was so hard for Tessa, he hated seeing her go through this.

He went to grab a large glass of water and head upstairs to his bedroom, knocking on the door. “Hey Tess?” He said gently. “I got you some water can I come in?”

There’s no response.

Scott knocks gently against the door. “Tess?” He said again, raising his voice a bit. He starts to feel his chest tightening at the thought of there being something wrong. Was Tessa alright? The silence is deafening when she doesn’t respond. He moves to open the door.

She was lying on the bed, her back facing him as she lied on her side with her knees to her chest.

“Tessa?”


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April, 2015
London, Ontario, Canada



Scott decided to send Tessa a text

Today, 7:20 PM:

Scott:
Hey Tess, I know it’s been a while since we last spoke. I miss my best friend, what do you say to breakfast at the bag lady tomorrow at 9?

He sees the notification from Tessa on his phone.

Today, 7:23 PM:

Tessa:
Make it 10. I’ll see you there. :)

———

Scott finds her sitting alone at a corner table as he walked into the bag lady.


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December, 2015
London, Ontario, Canada



“What are you doing here?”

He doesn’t say anything as he walked the two steps it took to grab her head with his hands and pressed his lips against hers and kissed her.

Tessa freezes, before melting into his touch, kissing him back gently, before she comes to her senses and pushed him away. “Scott what the hell!?l” she yelled at him.

Scott only looked at her with fire behind his eyes. “I broke up with Kaitlyn”

Tessa froze. “You what!?” She yelled, her eyes going wide. “Are you crazy!? I thought you loved her!”

Scott didn’t love her. The woman he loved was standing right in front of him. “I love you!”

“Scott—please just stop!” She yelled

“No!”


—————


“You ready?” He said.

Tessa’s heart was thundering in her ears. She felt lightheaded at the thought of what could be on the test.

But she needed to know. She needed to know if this was going to change her life. Their lives.

Tessa stood up from the edge of the bathtub, making her way towards the marble countertop where the test lay.

With a trembling hand she