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Hey Julius, we need to talk. What ever you do please don't hate me, please know that I still have love for you and I will always have love for you. I still want to be very good friends and if your not comfortable with that then I completely understand. I know your probably gonna hate me for this and I feel really horrible about it and I've been trying to figure out ways to tell you but every time I want to tell you I get to scared because I fear of what your going to say or how your gonna feel about me and how your gonna see me different and not the same and I'm really scared of hurting you. So to get to the point.....I like girls.. and only girls....
I'm really sorry. I don't mean to tell you this way but I didn't know how else to tell you, I didn't want to tell you on the phone and then you hang up in my face and say you never want to talk to me ever again. I would hate myself for the rest of my life knowing that I hurt someone who loved me with all their heart. I've been really hating myself for not telling you sooner but I've been scared to. Through out the time that we been together my love has grown stronger and stronger for you but when we stopped talking, I don't know what happened. I didn't stop loving you but I just didn't feel the same, I wanted to call and text you but I didn't know if you would text back or answer because I kind of felt as if you didn't like me anymore or that you were losing feeling and I know I should have came to you sooner and talked to you about this but I don't really like talking about my feelings with people. Me and my(was) ex girlfriend, Chloe, started talking more, we've actually been talking before I even met you but that's besides the point right now. I'm sorry for changing the subject. One day I accidentally called her and after that day we just been talking more. We started talking everyday and the more we talked was the more I realized my feelings were growing for her, this was when me and you were not talking, I'm a horrible person for this I know and I'm sorry. I beat myself up for not talking to you before hand, but a few days later I told her I had feelings for her and she told me she had feelings for me to. After that we started dating and ever since that day I've started to really think about things. I didn't want to break up with you. But I didn't want to lie to you about my feelings and how I felt about boys. The older I get the more I realize I don't like boys as much as I used to. I really like girls. And I'm really sorry. I did not expect for things to turn out like this. I did not expect me to like girls as much as I do now. I just really hate myself for not telling you sooner. When I tell you I love you though, please know that I mean it with all of my heart. If you hate me please tell me, If you don't wanna ever talk to me again please tell me, If I hurt you please tell me.