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3/30/2019! Dream journal

Just had a dream that my aunt Kathy was killed at a movie theatre while we were all there, Ben Olivia aunt Kathy, aunt holly, uncle bob and I. She was killed by a Russian on meth. Before that, uncle bob had said some nasty things to me and hated me. Aunt Kathy had tried to resolve it before but it wasn't resolved. We were watching the movie then Ben and I had to go to the bathroom and we did. This bathroom was strange(similar to a bathroom I've seen before in a dream that was like a prison bathroom but very odd. There was one men's stall, two ladies stalls and a trans stall. The men's stall was being used so I went to the trans stall. Noticed somebody walk by and look t me through the crack in the door hinge spacing. Had a very strange feeling. Somehow the movie had predicted my aunt Kathy's death and I had known about the scene in the movie beforehand, so I didn't want to see or heart it... it happened while in the bathroom when my aunt Kathy had to go to the restroom herself (not the same one I was in) I'm not sure the details of that because my brain didn't produce them. Uncle bob was broken. Olivia was broken, we were all broken. Uncle Tom has no idea how to deal with it, after we left the theater to go back (aunt Kathy's home was in a different area and everything looked different except for the interior of the house). Uncle Bob and I were still at odds, making negative comments about many things, one including how a chair in the kitchen is worn down because Olivia and her boyfriend stopped caring about having sex on the chair and that's why it was worn down. Uncle Tom was sitting in a truck kinda like his dump truck but not, on the cell phone with aunt Kathy's corpse right inside the cab behind him. The dream was very detail, visual and very dark and anxiety ridden. I feel like this was a dream to help me prepare for the worse and make me think what would I do if tragedy struck and split my family apart?

Additional details before I forget: I believe I was working down there for summer and staying with them. I believe uncle bob was upset from last summer still when he got mad at me for drinking and smoking weed. I really think there's some rift between us still from that with his comments from Christmas[New Years Actually] this year (2018) about me being so drunk I did something, can't remember the exact words. Back to the dream, it seemed like everyone knew the death was coming. We were surprised but not like one would expect when a tragedy like that happens. It seemed to be spurred on by the tension uncle bob and I had. Aunt Kathy had tried to resolve it, and uncle bob seemed sorta willing to try and work through it but I was unwilling to something (like a certain word or phrase). It was an intense dream with lots of details as I said and this is the gist of what I can remember. Not really a great dream I want to remember, but it seems like an important one with a big message to take away from it: how would I be able to deal with a sudden tragedy like that, and help resolve ongoing issues within the family? Particularly my issues within the family and where my role is. I didn't get to resolve it in the dream but it seemed like uncle bob was going to live the rest of life downtrodden and negative, while Olivia was going to live with him until she left or became an adult. The family home would be abandoned, or uncle bob would find a way to keep it. These are all the thoughts I can muster about the dream, but I hope all is well and wow that was one of the more intense dreams I've had in a long time... thank God it was just a dream.