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Hi, I'm going to studying to become a Turkish grammar teacher in Turkey. I need laser eye surgery for 2.5° myopie. My eyes hurt. This is an irresistible pain when it turns into a headache. I have a concha hypertrophy on my nose. And I have stomach pains every night. My heartbeat is irregular and my hands are shaking. I can't even work part-time because I'm very thin. Life is too hard. I must get some textbooks about Turkish literature in publisher "Dergâh" kitapyurdu.com/index.php?route=publishers/publisherdetail&publisher_id=40 catalog. I want to buy all the books about local and European history in Turkish publisher "Kronik Kitap" www.kronikkitap.com/kitaplar catalog. I should buy all foreign novels in "Siren" sirenyayinlari.com/siren/kitaplar catalog. They sell books written by Jonathan Safran Foer, Herta Müller, David Foster Wallace, Irvine Welsh, Jack Kerouac... Also I must look novel advices from other publishers. Borges, Saramago, Dostoyevski, Murakami, Joyce, Proust, Faulkner, Tanpınar, Pamuk and Gülsoy... I want to build a library of great writers and unknowns such as. My library should be growing. The biggest things that won't disappoint me are the books. I need PC and printer. At night I can't sleep for thinking about these. These problems are growing like avalanches. During the day people see me as dead. We can't solve my health and education problems because we're having financial problems. Mom-side is well, but dad-side see me as a plague. My dad is teacher, my mom don't work. I have 2 little brothers and 1 little sister. Now my dad's salary is only enough for kitchen spending and house rent. The cost of the sins I didn't commit since my dad paid his sunken contractor father's debts, it hurts me. Besides, his family happy for I'm suffering. All the load on my dad now. I'm on the edge of death because I can't ability anything. I need the contribution of a generous person or organization. I want to be happy. I want to daydreaming when I remembered your unique attitude. I've never had habits like lying, drinking, smoking, drugs, gambling and prostitution. I don't want him to be. I haven't got a girlfriend. I'm a non-practice Muslim. I refuse racism, sectarianism and theocracy. I adopt a tolerant, secular, scientific approach. I didn't hate the Christians who attacked Gallipoli 104 years ago. As Ataturk said "Anzacs now sleep in the territory of the friendly country." Now I'm not going to hate the New Zealand nation or Christians. Because terrorists killed Muslims in New Zealand for previous week. The nation or religion can't be responsible for this massacre. I know the value of peace. I'm not a revengeful person. I want to be world citizen. Gülsoy says City of Shadows and Dreams novel "I'm tired of can't belong here. But I can't go." Me too. I grew up alone and I want to complete my progress by getting lost in the books. This one is little step for you but I'll be grateful for the rest of my life. I beg just you to forgive my request. Perhaps you receive us the house we live in. The only thing I want is study healthy in my own house full of books. I hope you'll help me. Surgeries will save my body, books and home will save my spirite. All for these I need 112.000 euros. My EUR account is TR760001500158048017307174. My phone: +905549495608. My adress: Parsana District, Cangul Street, C Block 20, Postcode 42130 Selcuklu/Konya. I'm ashamed to want this in the world of cancer, but I need a miracle and the beautiful face of American nation. I want to retreat to the loft with my books. I wish it becomes real. This is my only hope. Kind regards.