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if you didnt notice you mean everything to me sometimes i cry cause i dont know what ill do if i lost you i wanna talk to you but dont know how to do it i wouldnt want you to take it the wrong way and leave me or not feel for me anymore so i hold it in my happiness with you feels real but i try to keep a smile on my face to hide all the pain and hurt that i have i just wish you'd fix it but i know its not easy when i keep all my feelings in its hard to vent to you cause i feel like you wouldnt understand but i try i really do i worry about you many hours out the day your the only thing on my mind ill put you before anyone sometimes i feel like im not worthy enough to play this roll i just dont want you to find someone better but day by day i prepare myself just in case anything happens between us lord knows i wouldnt make it but sometimes people move on to bigger and better things in life i just want you to kno if i can help it i will never let you hurt inside you mean the world to me and im really thankful your here in my life i gotta lot goin on rn i just need you omn my side i feel like i have nobody but you but it slowly feels like im losing that to when i cry its just alot of pain i held in thats coming out i dont mean to irritate you or annoy you its just hard to hold back i dont know how to fix it i feel like i gave you my heart and soul and when i see what you do it breaks me i just dont want to tell the one i adore the most they cant have my love i cant take no more lies i try to block it out and tell myself its not real but knowing damn well it is cause its right there in my face i dont know what it is if its the love the sex i dont make you happy i really dont know what it is but i see i do something wrong if you cant just be happy with me when im around you i feel complete i would be nice to know how you feel to but ill never really know its hard to know when you call other girls beautiful or wanna be a freak in the sheets with another female or wanna be otp with another girl all night its hard it really is its like you cant sit still you wanna link with females and allat like its ok to have friends but i know just being around someone youve had intercourse with will lead to it again temptation is a big part in a persons life know my mind is telling me to fuck all these bitches up but thats not gon solve the problem with you youll just mess with them watch them get beat up and be on to the next one it kills me that my simple words dont change nothing i love you but somethings i just cant stand i keep giving you chances you were doing so great but new school seems like a new you everytime you start a new school its always a new bitch now i feel like you gon keep doing it because so many times youve done it i forgave you i feel like even if i got on my knees and cried you would still have to second guess if you should stop its time to grow up youve taken me under its like your incapable to just have a female friend you always gotta do the most this "bestfriend" shit is way outta pocket you must be stuck on fuckin stupid if you think this is ok my boy i swear you doin it hella big trust and believe me you make me wanna stop callin you some shit cause other girls call you it we can build a empire together but the way you doin shit baby all we can build together is a box i know its other girls cuter then me thicker then me better them me but i can promise you no girl will ever go as far as i went for you or will go for you take my word for it and it really hurts when you make other females feel special or like they have a chance prove that lil girl wrong if you want i or take the tortilla bitch virginity if you want to imma show you crazy crazy i promise you i am i will really kill someone and i swear on everything that i fuckin love i will make a blood bath make blood angles and call the police on my damn self a rot in not jail but prison for the rest of my life happily with a smile on my face everyday i wake up you runnin game but i suggest you unplug that game if you feel like you cant do this maybe its time to rethink life i refuse to be the one hurt in the end