Notes

this is kind of weird to admit but I've been finding it hard to decide exactly when to talk to you. because of the middle ground we're at right now, it's hard to tell when to respond if at all.
hair looked beautiful when we met (nothing new)
made her mind up?
do i ask her if she's ready?
when will we meet?
thanks almost forgot how perfect you are
I said bye instead of see you
she's deciding between the simple and logical choice - and me
the fact I'm writing all of this is already too much I guess
why did I mention listening to valerie
is this over-burdening flirting? acting too much like friends? - I won't let that happen, it'll be over at no. Do I need to talk more to her, for it to be just enough for her to say yes?
I wish I could show her that her friends won't ditch her
we talk a bit - do I continue or stop. is she enjoying the conversation? do I start a new one? so many things to say. I can't tell if this is in my hands to change or not
is it a matter of her deciding on the day, deciding now, has she already decided?
my order of songs - my playlist. no one has even heard of gloria lasso except for me - that's comforting that she's listening but i don't know why - her music is nice
should I talk during overwatch games or just stay silent so it's not weird - so many one-liners missed
is she struggling over all of this or is it just me
wonder if I could have gotten away with extending that hug
is it love from before or am I just falling for you all over again
a hint of inner conflict? does that mean she's decided already?
sending her this is honest - but looks so so desperate and cringe. would it push her away? What if this makes her decide I'm not good enough. do I give it before, on the day, after?
weirdly happy she passed her test
how many more days am I going to spend in this delusion - it's worth it
do I have time to buy her a Winston plush before we meet
I can keep if it's too much