Notes

kalime: 3/11/2018 11:18pm 16 years old

What do you see as your future?
- I want to be successful somehow, but that's not going to happen. I'm going to most likely see my future in a rented apartment, working a full time job at your local store. Family will forget me, I'll probably have no friends and time off work will be spent staying at home either jerking off or watching someone else succeed.

Do you plan on getting married and potentially having kids?
- That's always something I wanted to do but as I got older, I started to disappoint a lot of people..so probably not, because I don't wanna disappoint my children or wife knowing that their father/husband became a nobody. I wanna teach my kids something worth wile, I don't wanna waste their time.

Why do you feel like this?
- I've always been compared to others when I was younger, especially kids in Afghanistan. The more I heard the comparison, the more I realized I'm a disappointment. I feel like I let my Mother and Father down, and I'm the biggest disappointment ever! Kinda hurts knowing I did nothing to make my parents proud, don't wanna disappoint my own family (if I have a family), so I stay away from people because I don't wanna disappoint anyone else. :(

Why are you always in your room?
- I'm just misunderstood. I hide my feelings out there and most of the time spent is me just letting my emotions out to myself in my room. No one really understands me, nor can I trust anyone. My father and mother care about the other kids more, which they should so I'm not really a priority. I'm not close with anyone one else, don't really have friends. I just talk to people I know. That's it.

How was your high-school experience?
- Really bad. Hung around people that don't care about me. Never met a girl I dated. Met a girl that I liked, then I realized she was hanging out with other guys which made me jealous since I'm sensitive, so I stopped talking to her. Teachers disliked me because I was trying to be a smart ares and a class clown which gets you nowhere in life. Never gave my all in school in terms of grades. Always rushed everything or did something last min and settled with a terrible grade which I would never show my parents because it disappoint them more, over time they forgot about my report.. :(

Goal in life?
- Not to disappoint others from here on out, be happy and stay to myself :)

Thanks! I love myself, because I know I'll be reading this!
Never going to show this to anyone lol. But I was just being honest.
Hope my future self is doing well and is happy! Stay out of trouble, idiot :))