Notes

Hey,
dear me,
Thank you for doing this
For blowin of the steam that's killin me
Forget the pain that keeps gettin to me
Finally take some rest from that bullet to my chest
Cause that bullet made a definite me
I can keep swimming in the sea
But if I can't see the land
My life seems kind of bland
Just same old same old
Fuck it, I might get bold
Just kiddin
I'm just trippin on these thoughts in me head
That spread of the bullet went through my body
Heart to feet
Now take a seat
And tell me the things that you find hard to beat

See the struggles that she left me
Brought me to the point of seeing
Seeing that love comes on time
But see my time was primary for her
I wanted to do everything for her
But my head being dingdong and shit's over
Want to ride away in a landrover
But all I do is spray in cod
Hopin for some bullets to take my pain
away that I won't die in vayn
But I've gotten so far
That I'm broken in scars
That I left myself, in my head, my skin, my brain, my eyes
But all hope is lost
I'm here stuck in a clusterfuck
Man, I just want to get away from here
Throw a spear
Tie me on it and take me to a place where I can be free
Fall in someone's arms where I feel safe
I want to be that brave
But I'm the guy to mess up every single moment in life
I want to see the light but everytime I look at it a bad dream takes over
Back in the dark
The dogs are barking
Running out of it
Help of my friends getting out of it
Not wanting them to do so
My life's not to worth to be saved tho
Just run ya fucking cunt they say
You can enjoy life
But how can I if you sliced that thought of my head
You treated me like shit at the end tho
Even tho I was there for you
Loved ya till the end
Your bra didn't need to come off for tha
Iknow, that was my bad
Call me a fag for that
I deserve that
But the times you needed a hug
Tell people you didn't had my plush
That plush means the world to me
I talked to it like we were best friends
At the time my only friend
It was nice to find that kindness in my mind
It has been there my whole life
I want to come to shore in someone's life
Share the love I wanted to give someone
There's a lot of guys out there
And I might be the nicest, the chillest, the best, the perfect, the one for you
Once you buy me with your love
Know that I am here any day till the end
You my number one, we are two, make a family of three, fuck it four, as long as I have you with me for my next five lives
I have felt how to be alone
I tried to stay strong
But looking back at it
It was still shit
You've broken my heart multiple times
Now triple the amount of impact you think you made on me
You changed me, moved me, made me the kinda guy I am
All I can do now is look down that bottle of beer and see how much I have left
On the positives, I can get wasted, I can get high so fly with so much haste
I'll fly to you tell you these bars that are as shit as an aardvark
Just to ask if I ever came across your mind?