Notes

Hey baby first i want to give you a warning that this might be a little longer than normal. I have alot of thoughts flying around my head right now and they are very unorganized so that a big yikes. Anyways honestly I just first want to say that I Aidan Mally Sorensen (idk why im saying my full name) love you jordan leigh auriemma with all my heart. I promise you baby that as long as you want it my love you yours. You truly are a amazing person and i am so luck that ive been able to call you mine for the last 262 days of my life. You truly have brightened my world more than i could ever truly express and anyone would be lucky to have you but i am so especially. I truly do not believe i deserve you. You are the most kind, caring, compassionate, beautiful, and driven person ive ever met. Honestly thats part of the reason why im weird with the tinder thing. I know its not yours but i can still just see you meeting a guy that is so much better than me and so much more deserving of your love. So honestly no matter what its not that i dont trust you. Its that i dont think that im good enough. I guess thats where alot of my insecurity with that shit comes from. I truly dont think im good enough for you and it scares me somtimes that youll find someone whose fitter, smarter, or actually in theater and can relate to you. I just really believe that youre amazing Jordan. You truly are. Way more than you give yourself credit for honestly. Also im really sorry for how things have been recently. I guess im just having a hard time adjusting to how things are now. I dont know i just miss when i would get to talk to you during the day and we would just i dont know. Hang out to a sense. Like just us to talking for like a few hours not after past midnight. I dont know it just helped me feel like more of a 'real' couple because it was like we were just hanging out and i dont know it was nice. And distance has just been especially hard recently. Especially because weve been so distant. Im really sorry Jordan. I guess somtimes to me it just feels like you dont make time for me and it just kind of hurts a little bit because im your boyfriend and i dont know. I dont mean to put this all on you though! I need to get alot better with it and i do need to become more independent as a person. I honestly just think that theres a happy medium that would be good for both of us that we just both arent at right now. But enough sad shit. Im tired of sad shit. I love you and i want you to always know that. YOU are my dream girl jordan. Im wrapping this up because i dont want to send you a 5 page essay but you really are my dream girl and im the luckiest man in this whole entire universe to be able to call you mine. I promise we will make it though this patch. and we will get to live the life we always pictured. I love you jordan. 703 <3