Notes

Yeah lately I feel so alone, I literally don't feel known, in a world filled with so much love but my hearts too cold, I just wanna be told that I'm loved, I want people to tell me not to go, being beat, filled with defeat, hiding in my room, screaming into the sheets, mad at everything I see! Why does everyone get love, except me? That's the way I been thinking lately, and truthfully? It's making me go crazy, i hope I don't go insane, it's just this constant pain running through my brain, scars on my arms, cut open my veins, I wish everything would change, and go back to how it was, I wish it were the same, but instead I'm being beat down! Being told I have no friends, being told that I'm lame, I swear to god you won't ever know my pain cause homie, we travel down two differnet lanes, lemme tell ya, the most important person died right in front of my eyes, left me traumatized, telling everybody that I'm fine but really I lie cause I'm plotting on my suicide! My best friend killed himself, I was left alone, again.. No friends wishing my life would just end, no father cause that motherfucker didn't even bother, left me in the dust, to rust, thinking I wouldn't get back up, but I did.. I was a kid, my grandma died when I was 9, my best friend died a year later, my father came back into my life when I was 12, good to know him but my life was a living hell, depression locked me in a cell and I was left by myself cause there was no one else, I mean I could tell you more, but that'd take forever, you don't gotta cry anymore, no more tears on the floor, no more being alone, cause I'll be here and that's for sure, yeah..